With a hope and a loss, I came to XX Central Hospital and started my internship. Since then, my identity has changed from a student to an intern nurse, my living environment has changed from a school to a hospital, and my contacts have changed from teachers and classmates to doctors, nurses and patients. For these three changes, how to be a qualified intern nurse, although the teacher has given us thousands of instructions, is still uneasy, strange and uncomfortable, afraid of being scolded by the teaching teacher, afraid of doing worse than others, and don't know where to start. ...

The first rotation department is Otolaryngology. My tutor is Mr. XX, who is an operation expert in the hospital. She is agile, graceful and standardized, which gives me a lot of pressure invisibly. At the beginning of my internship, I felt a sense of frustration. I feel so small in front of my teacher that I don't even have a brain in my work. I just perform tasks mechanically. Every time I just want to do a good job, the more I want to do it first, the more I make mistakes, the more I am afraid of making mistakes, and the more I am afraid of making mistakes. This forms a vicious circle. At that time, I didn't dare to ask for the operation, but the teacher felt that I was not active in my work, and sometimes I felt wronged and cried myself. Facing the teacher's busy figure like a duck to water every day, I only have a sigh in my heart, complaining that I can't apply theory to practice, complaining that I didn't study hard when I was a trainee before, and I wish I were all thumbs. Maybe I have poor adaptability and can't communicate with teachers. I'm still at a loss when I enter CCU, but I'm also very grateful to my tutor, who is patient and cares about me. In the endocrinology department, the teacher can see my progress every day. Even a little, she encouraged me. Even if I was stupid and made a mistake, she would tell me the principle and let me know the root of the mistake instead of scolding me. Played a guiding role. I began to have my own ideas and rekindled my enthusiasm for work. No matter how hard and tired you are, as long as you feel comfortable, you can spend every day happily!

Now we have entered the fourth rotation department, bone three. I thought I could adapt quickly, but the reality really poured cold water on me, and I felt more stupid and didn't know what to do. Teachers also feel that it is convenient to do things for such a long time. I am really ashamed of my teacher's helplessness! I fell into a trough again, and returned to a mindless life, with no organization at all. However, when Ms. Ting He learned that I didn't get surgical exercise because of my inferiority complex, she told me the importance of surgical techniques and helped me find exercise opportunities. It was the teacher who inspired my enthusiasm again. I really appreciate the teacher's concern for me, and I will redouble my efforts to live up to the teacher's expectations!

Now, I am still full of expectation and fear for the internship. I'm looking forward to it, because internship is an opportunity to combine theory with practice. It is very fresh and interesting to apply the theory I have studied for four years to clinic. Then, if you want to operate on a patient, if you really want to see the essence of the disease through the symptoms, but you have no bottom in your heart, you will inevitably be scared. I have also asked many interns, and they all have different opinions. In short, just like drinking water, you know it. But one thing is clear: the real way to master and apply knowledge is to apply it to practice, and to verify and consolidate what you have learned with practice. Learn how to communicate with patients and teachers! Not being good at getting in touch with people is one of my weaknesses, and that timidity and unnaturalness will make me lose many learning opportunities, so I think communication is also an art, and learning it well will benefit you a lot. After nearly five months of internship, I also had such an experience. Here, I have summarized the following points:

First, the problem of theoretical knowledge: in the past, students have always been students, and schools are student-centered. Chinese education has always been spoon-feeding: passively accepting so much knowledge. Although I have taken the exam so many times, now my knowledge seems to have disappeared in my mind and I can only keep turning pages. When I was speechless under the teacher's questions again and again, I realized that my memory was shallow, and memories without time were like footprints on the beach. At that time, it seemed profound and obvious, but it could not bear the cleaning of time.

Second, the problem of role transformation. When I first started my internship, I didn't understand many things. Although I have had a probation period before, I still feel lack of confidence when it comes to actual operation. Will I make a mistake? What if I did something wrong? I am always timid in doing things, and my classmates who practice with me do well. I think the teacher likes it. It seems that it's not my turn. I blindly follow the basic nursing and follow the operation every day. I want to say let me try, but I dare not. So I think the role change is a hurdle, and I must work hard to overcome it. The method mainly depends on initiative. I found that teachers are happy to teach as long as they ask questions and put forward operational requirements on their own initiative. You can't wait for the teacher to ask for something like in school.

Third, exercise bravely. In the face of patients, especially surgical patients, it is common to see blood, and when patients groan in pain, especially during surgery, their hearts will always be in their throats, so being careful and tying their hands behind their backs will bring more pain to patients. Therefore, you should be more bold and exercise more. My goal is to be bold and cautious, and only accurate and quick can solve the patient's pain as soon as possible.

Fourthly, aseptic concept and standardized operation. During the surgical practice, every teacher emphasized the concept of sterility. So I deeply understand the concept of sterility and follow it unconsciously in the operation. And standardized operation is really a very conservative and safe practice! As for new methods and innovative thinking, we must be familiar with the situation.

Smile service: Here, I see smiling faces, all of which are particularly beautiful and lovely, which makes me feel that if I were a patient, I would choose to live here without hesitation. Therefore, I also ask myself not to bring emotions to work, and keep a sunny smile every day to make patients feel warm!

In short, these months have been an adaptation process, and many shortcomings need to be improved. This is a learning process, and many concepts have been revised. Although I am very tired, I believe I can overcome it. In the future, we need to explore constantly, and at the same time, we must make demands on ourselves and make personal work plans in order to gain something.

The end of the internship means that we are about to set foot on the job. I believe that after this year's exercise, we will be more mature, more stable and more able to shoulder the responsibility as nurses. I believe that we will inherit Nightingale's lofty spirit, treat every patient with love, patience, care and responsibility, and serve the patients wholeheartedly.