What the author expresses is a kind of longing, which is between disappointment and despair. The author is June Qingquan, a castle. Before meeting each other, the spring was frozen in June and the dust was buried in the castle. As a full-fledged bird, it can't soar in the sky. The reason may be emotional frustration and long-term stagnation. I think everything in front of me is an illusory bubble, so I close myself up and think that peace and loneliness are the best. Even if there are scattered desires, the more pleasant it is. But since I met her who was as gorgeous as a rainbow as I never imagined, the author no longer closed her feelings and refused the better and rounder moon in the past. Now she longs for the unknown madness, because she surprised the author, but in the end the author lost her and the person who watered her lonely heart like green water. Then why? Why did their relationship become a cursed secret? It is precisely because of secular prejudice and the world's hesitation about their feelings that the slogan "love is love" has lasted for nearly a hundred years, but in most cases, their situation has never been concerned. That slogan is ignored by most people, and their voice channels are silent. Disordered memories and crazy thoughts seem to disturb the time, giving her the illusion that they are still together. Although her face is like a calm lake, her heart is desolate. Although it shows indifference, life seems to be the same, as if it has accepted living alone, as if it were an island. But the joy of the past is still vivid, and the ethereal heart still echoes with four words: "I want you."