I am a person who lives in memories.

I long for once simple freedom and once simple emotion. Between sunrise and sunset, I always miss myself, how to be moved, and experience it with a persistent and transparent mood. The long life has left a deep and shallow mark in my heart, so memories are precipitated in my mind. When I am sad, I will pick up my broken self in the corner of memory. When I am happy, I will capture the light of life in the shadow of memory.

It can be said that I live by memories, and I live by memories.

I miss my friends many years ago and my quiet and indifferent life. We have never said that only when the mountains have no edges and the heavens and the earth are in harmony can we dare to separate from you, nor have we said an everlasting oath. Although busy, but refused to give up looking for reasons to be moved; Although calm, I refuse to miss the road to beauty. Everything my friends say and do will evoke my sleeping memory in an instant, inadvertently. When the floodgate of memory was opened, memories gave me nostalgia and nostalgia, which made my former life exert a subtle influence on me in reality.

I avoided the bleak haze and walked towards the past while my memory was still there. There are bright sunshine and my grand dreams. I left the withered depression and walked in the direction of the past while my memory was still there. With my smiles and tears, my friends gave me help and care. I closed the door of reality, waiting for memories to shoot through the curtain of time and space and give me endless wealth. The wind is whistling, the snow is falling, and my back is on this reality. Even if the plum blossom will bloom without shame, I still feel that I cherish more memories than reality, because after all, it is the past, and when things happen, they will leave traces, just like a camel walking through the desert, it will be fixed.

I like to sit in my memory and make a pot of tea. A fiery friendship will pervade the whole room, and a persistent and unreasonable youth will gush out. Yes, I rely on the past.

I rely on memory. However, one day, the cold wind opened the door to my memory, and I thought that the sunshine of memory would warm me and drive away the cold winter; I thought my friends in memory would use all my strength to help me out of the pale winter; I thought the courage and strength in my memory would break through the cage of time and hit the poor winter. However, there is no quality guarantee for memory.

In the face of freezing winter, I am helpless; Facing the hard and stubborn wind, I am unable to fight back; In the face of dull and monotonous winter, I have no way to escape. The memory I rely on is as light as suspended matter in the air and as worthless as no trace in the eyes of reality.

I left a memory, even if it was my dependence. Because the beautiful moth relies on her wings, but she pounces on the flame she loves all her life and destroys her flame. And I, too, must give up dependence and achieve my own life.

Dependent choice

According to legend, the Buddha died of illness on the way to preach. Before he died, his close disciple asked, "What do we live on after my teacher dies?" The Buddha smiled and said, "Give up dependence." So should we give up our dependence in real life?

"The lives of gentlemen are different, and good and evil are also things." Sometimes, we have to be dependent and know how to rely on external things to achieve our goals.

Fan Zhongyan once said: "The world is ruled by virtue, and the world is chaotic by virtue." Ancient kings ruled by sages. After Emperor Gaozu Liu Bang won the world, he held a grand banquet in Nangong, Luoyang to celebrate. During the dinner, Liu Bang asked everyone why they won. Someone replied that it was because Liu Bang was able to share joys and sorrows with his subordinates, while Xiang Yu was jealous of virtue and avoided it. Those who had rendered meritorious service were killed instead of being rewarded, so they failed. Liu Bang said, "You only know one, but you don't know the other. I am not as good as Sean, who won the battle thousands of miles away from home. I am not as good as Xiao He in stabilizing the country, appeasing the people and ensuring food supply. If you lead a million people, you will win the battle and attack you. I am not as good as Han Xin. These three people are outstanding talents, and I can hire them, which is why I win the world. Although Xiang Yu has his father Fan Zeng, he can't be trusted, so he lost the world. " Hearing this, everyone was completely convinced. Liu bang knows how to make good use of people and rely on others, so he won the world; Xiang Yu was arrogant, had no dependence, and did not know how to rely on others, so he lost the world.

In this world, it's lucky to have someone to help you, but it's just fate to have no one to help you. No one can help you all your life. Therefore, when no one can help you, you must abandon dependence, strengthen your ground team and overcome difficulties on your own. Lenin took an active part in the revolutionary movement in his youth. He has only been in the university for a few months, and he was expelled from the school authorities for this reason. Without the help and support of others, he began a hard self-study. Although there was no teacher to teach, with Lenin's own smart and diligent learning attitude, he completed all the four-year college courses in just one year. He passed the graduation examination of Petersburg University as an off-campus student with excellent results in all subjects. The professors asked him strangely who helped him with his study. Lenin shrugged and replied, "Who helped me?" I learned it myself. "

Therefore, in front of trustworthy people, we can remain dependent. However, once we lose a trustworthy person, we should not be at a loss, but should abandon dependence and rely on ourselves.

Bai tuo yi lai