After dinner, standing on the balcony, staring at the high night sky, I suddenly remembered that a friend once sighed and told me the other day that a quiet, beautiful, natural and real person like you lacks sophistication and imagination, devotes himself to his dreams, is unmoved by material desires and is willing to write wholeheartedly. Here, "the world is bustling, all for profit; In an era when the world is bustling and everything is profitable, how can people not worry about you? Don't you want to think about your future?

At that time, I just smiled and didn't make any distinction. Looking back silently now, I feel that what she said is of great significance.

Bing Xin once said, "People are only amazed at its brilliance as a flower of success, but they don't know that its bud was full of tears of struggle and blood of sacrifice." These short words reveal a fact, an absolute fact, that is, life is first and foremost a process of suffering. Only when people hold their heads high to meet the ups and downs of life and accept the tempering of life can they surpass mediocrity. However, to my surprise, there are still many people who privately believe that this belief in life and this lifestyle only apply to men. As for women, it means that it is better to marry well than to do well. They relish that "men conquer women by conquering the world, and women conquer the world by conquering men." The implication is that men and women are "born" different. It is a man's business to have a successful career and enjoy a better life after hard work, while it is a woman's scenery and happiness to climb Campbell who clings to a successful and powerful man and live a full and idle life. This is really annoying. This kind of ideology is similar to "it is a virtue for a woman not to be talented" (it is a virtue not to not read! The traditional concept of "Miao" has the same effect, which will corrode a woman's soul like mold, destroy a woman's independent consciousness, make a woman completely dependent on a man from her soul to * *, lose herself, become a man's doll, and become an out-and-out "second sex"; If this ideology is left unchecked, it will bring endless harm. Not to mention the great loss of the whole human society, it will waste a lot of talents for no reason. It is an extreme contempt for women's own intellectual development, spiritual improvement and dignity. Seemingly colorful, comfortable and comfortable, it is actually a trap of endless future trouble. It is understandable that men, driven by traditional consciousness and their own interests, advocate women to live like this. If women are not alert and plan their lives according to the settings of men, it would be a big mistake. In the feudal history of thousands of years, women have no independent consciousness, are attached to men, blindly cater to men's life and aesthetic taste, compromise, and are easy to be accused, even to save themselves, at the expense of destroying the living conditions of the same kind. It is a mirror, which should reflect a woman's heart and let her overcome inertia and natural fragility. Look at your relationship with the world rationally, tap your inner strength, bravely face and undertake life choices, gradually get rid of spiritual fetters and move towards self-esteem, self-reliance, self-improvement, freedom, self-confidence and maturity! Maybe my friend didn't realize it. Subconsciously, she wants me to escape suffering, be a woman in an innocent girl, rely on a pair of strong arms, enjoy the cool under the big tree, live a carefree life, and do not seek literature. ...

This meditation gives me the creeps!

My thoughts are flying all the way, and I can't help thinking of lev tolstoy's anna karenine and Margaret Mitchell's Gone with the Wind. "Tuo Weng" Anna equates love with life and indulges in the emotional world because of her lack of ideals and narrow interests, and finally chooses * *; Hao Sijia in Mitchell has long attracted Rhett and won Rhett's love with her strong courage and charm in life! The two unforgettable women portrayed in these two masterpieces are as beautiful as flowers and pure as jade, but their endings are completely different. How to write about the future and destiny of women is sobering!

Think about yourself again. For many years, for the sake of my innocent literary dream as a teenager, I stayed away from my hometown relatives and lived in a foreign land, enduring deep homesickness and resisting the temptation to play, so that my life was soaked in the book, time splashed in a blank field, and my spirit followed the feathers of ancient sages and flew like a cloud crane! Is there anything wrong with this life? At least I don't think so. If I was infatuated with the artistic conception in Tang poetry and Song poetry when I was a teenager, Chenxi Yu's first morning, quiet afternoon, quiet dusk, or quiet rainy night was one of the beautiful memories of my life, then now, he is like an infatuated Jingwei, who has never stopped his belief in reclamation, never bowed to fate, never compromised with the world, persisted in his ideals, looked forward to love, and pursued knowledge tirelessly. Out of sympathy for human suffering, I deeply integrated my personal life with the torrent of human life. I firmly believe that when I look back, it will be one of the best memories in my life.

At this moment, I find myself still willing to imitate the spirit of Martin Luther: "Even if I know that the world will be destroyed tomorrow, I will plant my apple tree." Let me go all the way along this life belief!