There are 10 students in our class. There were five volunteers and five transfers, and I was the last one.
The teachers may have a bad impression of me at first, thinking that I am a dude, and I am not learning material at all. I know I may be a little stupid, but I am an indomitable person. I've been working hard. It took me half a year to reach the middle level of our class, and the teachers know me well. I don't think I am the kind of student they think I am.
Kenichi has just arrived and everyone has a scholarship. There is nothing to say.
I didn't get Yaner's scholarship. It can be said that the cooked duck flew away, but I won't elaborate. The reason is ridiculous. About June 65438+ 10 in 2020, my graduate career seems to be unhappy from now on, which is my secret pain. But I didn't lose heart and didn't break it. I took a diversion. I study, read books and choose topics for my graduation thesis so hard that my classmates haven't started to choose them yet. I ruled out several topics under the guidance of my tutor, and finally chose to study modern customs history as the direction of my graduation thesis. Then I went on reading, and I set myself a goal. I must publish a good journal in the second year of research and get a scholarship for the third year of research with dignity.
Therefore, I plan to go to Guangzhou in June, 2002/KLOC-0, and then take it home for translation, because the handwritten English of the archival materials is very sloppy, so I need to read it slowly. Unfortunately, my foot was broken after I bought the ticket, but I still plan to go, otherwise the winter vacation time will be wasted. The answer before the specific experience is yes.
This trip didn't live up to my expectations, it was genuine. During the winter vacation, I translated and wrote a paper, probably in March. At this time, my mind changed. I don't want to publish periodicals. I want to participate in an academic forum, because the forum has more points. So I began to revise my thesis and went to Guangzhou again in April. With the help of my seniors, I found very valuable historical materials in Jinan University, which added icing on the cake to my thesis. In May, I threw it out. In July, it was fruitless and the stone sank into the sea.
In August, I transferred to a periodical, and my tutor thought my article was not bad. It's a pity to vote for a bad periodical, but it's difficult to vote for a good periodical, so she gave me a hand. She is a worker and I am two.
On September 30th, at noon that day, I received the employment notice. The teacher personally went to the editorial department to get it and gave it to me personally. I was really happy at that time, and I felt that the whole person was shining. I will guard that paper like a baby, put it in my notebook, put it in my schoolbag, carry it with me every day, and take it out if nothing happens.
10 After the National Day, scholarship evaluation. On the evening of June 65438+1October 1 1, my roommate told me that he had asked the tour guide. My employment notice doesn't count, so I can't get extra points. I need to read a magazine. I am printing the materials used to evaluate the scholarship. At that moment, I felt cold and didn't want to print, but I still crustily skin of head.
I called the guide in the evening, and he said that he would discuss it with the dean and the secretary. I'm in a hurry. Call my secretary at once. The secretary resolutely refused me, but I might be afraid that it would take too long to accept it, so I took a slow-down plan. We'll have a meeting to discuss it then.
Actually, intellectually, I already know the result.
For more than half a year, in order to promote a good publication, all my efforts have been put on this paper. Because it has not been published, it can't be counted. While other students spend one or two thousand to distribute a junk periodical, it is easy and simple to get extra points. My heart is unbalanced.
I know this is a rule that cannot be easily changed. I don't deserve the college to change the rules for me. I have expectations, but I don't expect anything, and the teacher is very kind to me. I am very satisfied with this.
I don't care much about this 4000 yuan. There are two main reasons why I feel uncomfortable. One is that my efforts and expectations for more than half a year came to nothing at the last minute, and that sense of despair was about to overwhelm me.
The second reason is that most people have scholarships, but I don't. But I obviously paid the most, and everyone was happy to get the money, and even went out to celebrate. What should I do?
In fact, there is one thing that I still can't figure out, and it is also the most uncomfortable thing for me. Why did I get two scholarships? It's bad luck every time. It's the third year of research, and there's no chance to evaluate the scholarship next time. If there is another chance, I guess it will be me.
But I still don't want to be looked down upon. I can never do it. I'm so tired.