I'm only thirty, and I think my life is terrible. Recalling life 30 years ago, there are too many regrets. Although people always say that they should move forward and not be trapped in memories, they always want to find an opportunity to recall these 30 years.

When people reach middle age, they get married and start their careers, but the reality is that their families are separated and their careers are declining!

? Tell the story of my ex-husband. I have known him for eleven years and have been married for less than two years. In 2020, I ended this marriage that was not blessed and optimistic.

I met him in the summer of 2009. Shortly after the university started, he entered Henan Polytechnic University as my junior (now he looks down on this school). This is how I was introduced to his hometown, along with my hometown, who had a bad first impression of my ex-husband. There are no other comments, but they feel bad and sincerely don't like it.

However, I saw the light in his eyes. Forgive my narcissism, but I think he at least has a crush on me. Later, the four of us met and went to play several times. My ex-husband always quarrels with me. His words can kill people. Therefore, I am a little disgusted with him. Because universities are very big, there is not much overlap at ordinary times. I may ask him for help if I have something (this is what he said later, in fact, I forgot). Christmas Eve gave me a red apple (it is said that a female classmate in his class gave it to him). I forgot whether I wanted it or not, but I knew what it meant to give me an apple, and I could feel his inner thoughts more or less.

? So, once the four of us met to go shopping and talked about our future spouses, I took the opportunity to say that my spouse must be above 1.8 meters in height, because all the men in our family are very tall. This also implies that he does not meet the standard, because he is only about 160cm, which is not my type at all.

? In fact, my four years in college were quite boring, and I spent all my time on so-called study. After graduation, I feel that there is nothing left except the scholarship certificate. Of course, after a year of hard work, I was admitted to the graduate school of Jilin University. So, in fact, when I was in my third year of high school, we had little contact, and I was teaching myself. ...

Later, I went to Changchun, and he also started the road of postgraduate entrance examination, during which there was not much overlap (I didn't remember anyway). Later, when he finished reading the scores, I asked him about his grades. He did well in the exam and was very happy for him. And told him to contact a good tutor as soon as possible. At that time, he confessed to me once, saying that he felt that he was admitted to graduate school and worthy of me, and I refused.

? Later, he took classes as a graduate student and talked to us privately, but I never regarded him as my other half from beginning to end, just hoping that he could become my good friend. I have several friends who talk about everything, men and women. At that time, I still believed in pure friendship between men and women.

? He is one of my best friends, and I know he has a crush on me. I remember saying to him, "You never got me, so you think I'm very good. If we are together, you will find that I am not what you think. " I didn't expect this sentence to come true, so we divorced.

? Then at the graduate stage, I said, I know he is interested in me, but I think he is nice. I introduced him to the girl in my dormitory. Of course, I thought this girl was nice, but she also thought he liked me, so they didn't talk much.

When I graduated from graduate school, he was just a graduate student, and finding a job was not so ideal. Therefore, my climate is particularly bad. I got a tan after military training. After the military training, he said that he would come back to see me. I think it's good. He may not have illusions about me when he sees me. But after seeing me, he felt sorry for me. I am most afraid of being pitied by others. So, once I refused his invitation to Beijing.

? However, he silently helped me to submit my resume on the recruitment website. The location is Beijing, and the occupation is my yearning occupation.

? I was really touched, but there was nothing I could do. I thought I would go to Beijing for an interview to repay his kindness and didn't want to owe him anything.

? When I arrived in Beijing, I was not prepared. As a result, it is conceivable that he still had a fever, gave up his third driving test and came to pick me up and accompany me for an interview. Actually, I am very burdened and don't want him to come. Later, I learned that he was still ill that day, so I had mixed feelings on the day I left. After the interview, he also wants to take me to his school's laboratory to meet her brothers and sisters. To tell you the truth, I am disgusted. He put a lot of pressure on me by letting me meet his friends unprepared without my consent.

? There is also an episode in the middle, that is, when I was sent to the train station, I got on the subway and he didn't. I was relieved at that time, thinking that I could leave quietly at noon. But I didn't expect him to take the next subway and find me at the huge Beijing West Railway Station. I was buying a train ticket when I turned around and found him behind me. I am not happy at all, but sad. I'm afraid I'll fail him eventually, because I can't get over it and I still have no feelings for him. Although I don't hate him as much as before, I hate physical contact with him.

? So, when I left, I cried, because I felt that it hurt his self-esteem and I couldn't repay him myself.

? So when I returned to Xingtai, I sent him a text message saying no and told him not to wait for me. However, call me and ask me if I have arrived. I have never mentioned the breakup. In fact, we were not really together at that time.

? Later, I forgot one thing specifically. He asked me to hack him, and I hacked and deleted all his contact information. Quit your job, find a new job, and don't leave yourself a backward path.

? When he was in senior three, I came to work in Zhangjiakou Bank. Not long after I joined the company, I got a call from her. Because it has been deleted, I called Beijing, but I didn't expect it to be him. But the first thing he said was: Why did you go to that poor place in Zhangjiakou? I recognized his voice and felt wronged instantly. He doesn't know anything. Why do you judge me like this? Why did it affect my life? I was so angry that I called him over and scolded him. Knocked him out. Changed the ringtone to "No more contact".

In the next two years, I also told my friends the story between us. They feel very sweet after listening to it. It is rare for a classmate who has known me for so long to be reluctant to part with me.

Including my classmates in my high school dormitory, all know the story between us. I don't know if my statement is wrong. They all think the story between us is very sweet.

? So when I look for someone on a blind date, I always compare him with someone I trust intentionally or unintentionally, and sometimes I wonder if it is fate. He lingered in my mind for nearly ten years.

? Later, a blind date met a person who felt suitable, but they didn't get along for long. To tell the truth, I don't have true love, and I always fantasize that my first love is my husband. How beautiful.

? However, if this short-lived relationship is a love, then my first love will die.

? After breaking up, I was sad for three days, reflecting on whether I owed too much debt before. So, I took the initiative to add back my ex-husband's qq. Unexpectedly, I left him a message: sorry! I didn't expect him to come back soon, saying that he was still single. In fact, I just wanted to say sorry to him at that time, and there was no other meaning.

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