I used to think that the most affectionate word in the world was "I love you", but now, I haven't gone through half my life, but I already have a feeling of seeing through the world of mortals.

After many times of falling in love, quarreling and breaking up, I have long given up hope for love. When the last straw was pressed down, it disappeared in an instant, and it was still talking about growing old together. Everything is a joke.

One day Xiaoxi told me that she thought the most affectionate and warm-hearted sentence in the world was a real "from now on, please give me more advice".

This is what Xiaoxi told me the day after she took off the bill. At that time, as a foodie, I was eating my favorite baked sweet potato, but somehow, I stopped and didn't know if I should bless her.

The hot sweet potato is emitting heat in my hand, and the sweet taste makes people drool, but I have no time to take care of it. I just looked at her and wanted to see her future.

"He is so kind to you." I don't know what to say. That's all I said. I often say this in the days to come, because I don't know how to bless a love that can't have a result.

Until they broke up, I didn't think much of a decent word.

They spent a total of 108 days together. I think maybe the eight words in this number are the luckiest things in Xiaoxi's feelings.

"North, he broke up with me." I was shocked when I ate chestnut in the dormitory. The air froze to freezing point, and my mouth was full of chestnuts, but I still didn't know what to say.

I told you where you are, and I'll find you. She said she was on the steps in front of the dormitory.

When I got to the dormitory downstairs, the chestnuts I hadn't swallowed were all over my mouth, so I simply swallowed them.

"North, he broke up with me." Afraid I didn't hear you clearly, she wiped her tears with the back of her hand and said it again.

Look at her red eyes. You don't have to guess. She must have had a very difficult time before she came to me.

I went up to hug her and pat her on the back, and I didn't forget to touch her little brain. "Xiaoxi, it's okay. Without a crooked tree, we still have a big forest. "

As soon as my words fell, she cried even more fiercely, like being punched, crying intermittently, and even crying too late to catch her breath. "I begged him if he could not leave, but he said no, he could not forget her."

I can't forget my ex-girlfriend, for fear of delaying Xiaoxi and not giving Xiaoxi what he wants. These reasons for breaking up are all in front of me.

Although my mouth soothed the stream, I still lamented in my heart, alas, it was another anodyne reason to break up, such as scratching my boots. I dared to take off my socks and forgot to say it earlier! You are a fucking man!

2.

I have never seen such a lovely girl as you. You were an angel in a previous life. With this sentence alone, Xiao Jie entered the heart of the stream and declared permanent sovereignty.

Xiaoxi said that she has been a gold and single dog for more than 20 years, and no one has ever said such a thing to her. This time, she was moved. The girl's heart in the stream blooms like flowers in the breeze in early spring.

I have known Xiaojie for two months, and the relationship is ambiguous for two months. Xiaoxi likes it very much, but the girl's sensitive heart keeps Xiaoxi from breaking the paper. Every time we communicate and meet, she is walking on thin ice, fearing that one wrong step will be beyond redemption.

Xiaojie fell in love with the stream at first sight, so he started the oldest story, and companionship was the longest confession. Although romantic, when it comes to his playboy, I can only say that the routine is not deep enough.

But the stream was possessed by the devil, and it ate Xiao Jie's trick.

Every night, when he comes back from his internship in the company, Xiaoxi, who never sleeps late, struggles to 1 1 half past one every day just to chat with Xiaojie and say good night to each other.

He wanted to work overtime in the company to write a copy, so Xiaoxi took the bus for an hour and ran three times to find the steamed stuffed bun that Xiaojie loved. After I buy it, I will take the subway four times to Xiaojie's company and give it to Xiaojie.

In Beijing, a city where the company is far away from work, it will leave two hours in advance. Every time I look at Xiaoxi, I get up at four or five in the morning to wash my face and make up, and happily send Xiaojie to the bus stop. I feel uncomfortable in my heart, knowing that Xiao Jie is just a China, but I can't bear to tell Xiaoxi this cruel reality.

Xiao Jie, a junior and a senior majoring in English, is a scum in study and a playboy in social life. Throughout the university, he was busy flirting with all kinds of little girls. Class today, class tomorrow.

I know Xiaoxi because Xiaoxi posted a message about the water card on Weibo. As a result, the next day, he privately wrote Xiaoxi: My water card is cheap. Do you want to buy it?

In fact, he doesn't have any cheap water cards at all. His wishful thinking is, anyway, as long as he wants contact information, he will sell his water card to Xiaoxi cheaply. How can he get it if he can't come up with some money?

So it is logical for the two to add WeChat to each other. A person's love for a person, some people know and pretend not to know, and some people know. Xiao Jie must belong to the second kind. He knows that Xiaoxi likes himself. I don't know why, maybe it's loneliness, maybe it's loneliness, but it can't be because I really like Xiaoxi. One day in the third month, Xiaojie confessed to Xiaoxi.

On this day, a light snow fell in the sky. Under the dim street lamp, you can see two people standing at a distance. They looked at each other, and the snowflake was mixed with the exhaled heat, and a layer of white gauze was woven between them, faintly dotted with the sparkling reflection of the snowflake. Xiaoxi said that she would never forget that sentence in her life. "Xiaoxi, I like you. Be my girlfriend. From now on, please give me more advice. " Before Xiaoxi could give her an answer, Xiaojie kissed her.

In this way, the heart of the stream slowly melts in the flying snowflakes.

3.

Xiaoxi never dreamed that Xiao Jie, who stood aloof in front of Shuai Shuai, turned out to be her boyfriend, and her first love was so dreamy. The story of Cinderella emerged in my mind and quietly blossomed in my heart.

Xiaoxi told me that from now on, she can only look at Xiaojie through glasses. Even the boy who has been secretly in love for half a year passed by, and she stopped looking at him. Because Xiaojie is around, Xiaojie is the best gift the world can give her.

Xiaojie didn't buy her roses. She said she was allergic to flowers and didn't give her lipstick. She said she liked Su Yan and didn't take her to a fancy restaurant. She said roadside snacks are the most economical.

It's just that the stream that was carried away by love never paid attention to it. He never sent her back to the dormitory, never bought her breakfast, and even called him for five minutes to report when he was sick, without even a word to drink more hot water.

Xiaoxi always comforts himself that he is busy and can't give him any trouble. For her, love can make her drink enough. As long as she thinks those eyes are her boyfriend's, they are enough to make her happy all day.

4.

I don't know when the stream began to covet the love of others.

She began to feel that Xiaojie didn't like herself as much as she thought. But she just doesn't want to admit it. She's scared. She is afraid that all her dreams will come to nothing and disappear in an instant.

On WeChat, there is no second message in Xiaojie's chat box. Every time she waits for more than half an hour, she will get an "hmm" or "oh" reply. On weekends, Xiaojie no longer goes to the movies with Xiaoxi as usual, and then happily eats a bowl of pollen in the restaurant at the school gate.

Love at first sight turned out to be wishful thinking.

Finally, after losing contact with Xiaojie for a week, Xiaoxi finally couldn't help it and came to me. "North, what about him ... doesn't he love me?" The stream looked at me innocently.

"Did he say that he loves you?"

But in fact, this year, love is like a flood, mixed with too many impurities, with no end in sight. This kind of love is not as pure as love.

5.

Put the mobile phone face up on the table when eating; After taking a shower, I turned on my cell phone in a hurry without wiping my hands. I picked up the eyebrow pencil in front of the mirror, put it down, put it down and picked it up again. I don't know what kind of makeup to paint to show my most beautiful self.

And all this is because Xiao Jie hasn't seen himself for a month. There were only a few brief phone calls in the middle, and there was no news.

Finally unbearable, she went to see Xiao Jie. I painted exquisite makeup, put on beautiful clothes, skipped a day's class, and looked for Xiao Jie in the big city of Nuoda, but I didn't see Xiao Jie.

When she returned to the dormitory, it was raining cats and dogs outside. Without an umbrella, she has nowhere to hide. Her hair is wet and her makeup is spent. She walked slowly, crying as she walked.

-6- Xiaoxi broke up. Day 108.

"Sorry, I really can't forget my ex-girlfriend." Xiaojie took out a photo of herself and her ex-daughter. One by one stung the heart of the stream, and the photos were full of love.

You can tell at a glance whether you love someone or not. Xiaojie never left a message for herself, never said a good word to herself, and never sent herself to the dormitory. How can you be so sure that Jacko loves you? Because of that sentence, or that look?

Xiaoxi edited a very long message and didn't send it out. Xiaoxi stared at the words on the screen of the mobile phone and suddenly felt unnecessary.

That long one didn't come out at last. Xiaoxi deleted it word for word, and also deleted Xiaojie's WeChat friends by the way.

She asks me every day, "Didn't he say please give me more advice from now on?" Why don't you keep your promise? "

It doesn't matter if you go the wrong way in life. Just don't go the wrong way next time. Why bother? When a person leaves for any reason, the subtext is: You are no longer worthy of me. Please, let me find my own happiness.

Xiaoxi believes that the eyes of that night are true, the hug he gave is true, and the words he cares about are also true.

However, those words were true only at that moment. When time moves forward like running water, people have changed.

Xiaoxi didn't understand this until later. She said that it took her a long time to finally open Xiaojie's circle of friends. No longer so uncomfortable, not uncomfortable.

After all, Xiaojie still owes her a promise. "From now on, please give me more advice."