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Reprint: In fact, you are only "excellent", not excellent. ...
Article classification: IT life
Xiu Xiu, my good friend in high school, spent a hard time in the same class in the third year of high school. She studied hard and got excellent grades. Later, she was admitted to a famous school in Beijing. Now she is a graduate student in a university not far from me and an intern in a fortune 500 company. Xiu Xiu's company is the world's leading big brother company in the IT field, but she is an intern in the human resources department, and her major seems to be administration or management, but IT has nothing to do with human resources or IT anyway.
I asked her what she wanted to do in the future. Xiu Xiu said that she wanted to do business in a luxury company, because she heard that the salary of interns there was one day in 500 yuan. If she can become a regular employee, she will certainly have a lot of money.
I asked her why she was practicing here, an internship that has nothing to do with the future and the present. Xiu Xiu said that she just wanted to have an internship, and nothing else mattered.
I asked her what her future plans were. Xiu Xiu said that she was going to quit this internship, go back to write a thesis during the Spring Festival, and then find an internship, the kind that can become a full member, and then work. As for what to look for, I don't know yet.
I'm a little silent, I feel something is wrong, but I can't say anything. I always subconsciously feel that the result of such an excellent student as Xiu Xiu didn't make me feel wonderful and shocking at all. I always think that Xiu Xiu should be the kind of person who can always surprise me.
Xiu Xiu said that she always felt that there was something wrong with her life, lacking motivation and passion, and everything seemed to be arranged. She has worked as an intern in a first-class key university, insurance research institute, gold medal tutor and top 500, and her journey has been very stable and smooth. But I always remember a sentence: "Smooth, just a mediocre life." I didn't quite understand it at that time, but now looking at our quiet life without any waves, I suddenly feel that this sentence is too in place. Xiu Xiu's life is bound by a pattern, as if cheating was a big mistake. Of course, Xiu Xiu, who has always been excellent, will not deceive himself, just be the fastest runner on the track. I told Xiu Xiu, why do I think your life should not be so ordinary? Xiu Xiu said, "What do you think of me going abroad to study for a doctorate? This will have an overseas background. " I almost turned the stool over.
Xiu Xiu, remember Jessica Hester Hsuan? Jessica Hester Hsuan, who plays the piano well in our class, is a tall Jessica Hester Hsuan who comes to the classroom leisurely every day. I want to tell you something about her now.
At that time, Jessica Hester Hsuan's old man had letters of admission from many famous schools, such as Tsinghua Peking University, but her grades were poor. She only went to a second-class school, but she was still a special student, which was not easy. She studied piano for four years. When she finally graduated, she was admitted to a top three university in Canada to continue studying music. She studied under the world famous pianist XXX (I don't remember). We often chat on Fetion. I watched her slowly adapt to life abroad and slowly look for inner glory in another sky. I watched her musical dream blossom bit by bit. Her music is slowly moving from the school piano room to the stage, to the world and to a bigger and more beautiful place. Jessica Hester Hsuan is currently applying for a doctorate from Yale University. The problem is not big. When he learns, he will become a musician. I always thought she was not the best or even the worst, but now look at the students in our so-called intensive class. Which world is as wonderful, as grand and as tenacious as her? Just make a phone call and ask the top ten students in our class that year. Some of them struggled in the one-year postgraduate entrance examination class. It seems that if you don't pass the exam, you will be sorry for the reputation of a good student in the previous 20 years. Some have been admitted to graduate schools, and come out every day to find a company internship, or help tutors compile books to earn small money; Some jobs, go to work at two o'clock every day, earn some money to rent a small house, read books and read newspapers.
When I first met Jessica Hester Hsuan, she really shook my heart. She has been pursuing her own love and fighting for her own world with her own specialty. In her life before 12 university, she didn't break the eleventh place, but she didn't give up her dream, that is music, that is piano. She has love, music, yearning and persistent pursuit in her heart. I still remember that she jumped up and shouted in class when she was informed that Tsinghua special students could drop 80 points in a night study. At that time, the whole class looked at her disdainfully, knowing that she lost 180 and couldn't get into Tsinghua. Special students were nothing, and high literacy was the last word. But Xiu Xiu, we were all wrong. Jessica Hester Hsuan was glad that her music was finally recognized. This is the moment when she dreams of sailing. She knew that even if she scored 280 points less, she would not be admitted to Tsinghua.
What about us? We live a very regular and special life. We used abc and XYZ to get into a good university, got a master's degree in cattle, and squeezed into the top 500 as small interns, trying to add a flower to our background, which is actually a morning glory without any peony; Then join the company and compare with each other with the salary of 4K a month, who is petty bourgeoisie, who is famous brand, who can take a taxi when going out, and who rents a bigger house with hardcover. In the near future, we will continue to compare who has a house and a car and who is married to a rich family. But have you noticed that the world in Jessica Hester Hsuan is getting bigger and bigger, and our world is getting smaller and smaller, and finally it becomes 100,000 yuan that we earned by working overtime and staying up late in our youth, and we show it off in several hot properties and flashy expensive restaurants in Beijing. We have been good students for 20 years, and what we finally achieved is a small humble abode and a fragile heart hidden under the vanity.
You said you didn't expect me to become very good now. I was an ordinary student and didn't have Xuanxuan's specialty. In fact, I especially don't want to say these words, because it makes me look down on you. In fact, I don't have any bad feelings for you, just because everything you are experiencing now is what I used to be, and I especially want to tell you these spiritual traces of the past with my personal experience. In my university, I always thought that I should have a high salary, a decent job, be a legendary white-collar worker, go out and stay in a five-star hotel, and buy things without looking at the price, so I ran out for this goal. But in the glamorous white-collar life one year after graduation, I can't see my goal. I don't know why I have to work overtime and stay up late Is all this to make people think I'm busy and awesome? I am too busy to call my mother. I am too busy to be impatient with my friends. I am too busy to be angry with my family at home. Actually, I'm not that busy. I'm annoyed that I lost my goal. I am a person with goals. Without goals, my life will become a backwater.
Until one day in July this year, I suddenly remembered my dream on the train. Mustard seed said that people's dreams at the age of 17 are largely lifelong dreams. Yes, my dream of 17 years old has revived in my heart and become full of vitality. After that, I miraculously recovered my vitality and energy, started a lot of things I wanted to do, and also wanted to understand many problems, such as why I often worked overtime, and I was happy to put up with the fact that I didn't have overtime pay. I began to be maverick, firm and tenacious. This is all because I have a goal in mind. On the way to this goal, I know what I should order and what to give up. I learned to look at my own world and other people's world from multiple angles, and my vision became round and full, and my mind became broad and orderly. I try to read the history that I once hated, I try to do things in a business way, I try to listen to different voices, and I try to do all the things that a good boy should not do.
Taskey said: When you take a different road, you can see different scenery from others. When I became a special child in everyone's eyes, I saw that there were so many beautiful lifestyles in the world. I began to sincerely admire the greatness of workers in greasy overalls, and I was moved by the simplicity and kindness of the working people at the bottom of society. And these, I have drawn my standard life with a ruler.
I plan to rent a house in another place next month. I moved from a room of 20 square meters to an apartment of 8 square meters. My big double bed will be replaced by a small single bed. I have to tidy up all my things regularly, instead of littering like this. My new sister is worried about whether I can accept the coming changes. After all, it's hard to live frugally. But Xiu Xiu, you know what? My heart doesn't care, on the contrary, I feel very happy, because there is a goal in my heart, and all changes are only for this goal. Flexibility is an important measure of my future life.
This morning, Jessica Hester Hsuan said in an airmail that if she finally enters Yale University, let me give her a big reward. I smiled. Jessica Hester Hsuan, like a beautiful butterfly, flew to the lofty music heaven step by step. And her story and the days I experienced made me understand that success is not a concept of point, but a concept of growth. Only those souls who have goals, love, passion and can stick to the end can walk out of a road and live a bigger and bigger world.
Your own feelings
After reading it, I was silent. Then I thought,,, What is my dream of 17? It's ironic ... I can't remember it at all ... I didn't, but I really forgot.
My road is quite smooth .. Top students in primary school, top students in junior high school and top students in senior high school, along the way. My high flyers is tied up.
Occasionally indulging also feels that it will deviate from its normal track, so it will return to the life of top students.
But I never thought carefully ... what am I pursuing and what do I want? Is it really the old way of those top students?
When I was a child, my dreams were great, but how many were unrealistic. Scientists, educators, inventors, teachers, hehe.
So when I grow up, these dreams are projected into reality, and I find that they are so fragile.
Why?
This road is already patterned. I realize it's sad, but I actually feel powerless.
Because the previous road has been imitated .. so now I have grown up and embarked on this road because of inertia.
Top students must live a good life, find a good job, enjoy good things and everything.
Now I'm in college, and the top student mode is fucking out again!
I'm like Xiu Xiu in it, although I admit I'm not as advanced as her.
But we are all very sad. I've thought it over for a long time, and I've come to the conclusion that I'm going to college for a job, a good job and a good life in the future.
Without these goals, universities are all freeloaders. ..
I can't say that these goals are not good, but I am really sad. For these goals, I neglected what I missed and lost! ! !
Countless.
What did I do to live a small white-collar petty bourgeoisie life?
Study hard and try to make your credit score go in a higher direction. Why?
Because I want to get a scholarship, I want to write better on my resume in the future.
Take part in more activities and competitions, and then talk about it. Why?
I have become extreme, for what, just to write a better resume in the future.
Why did I become a Communist Youth League secretary, why did I join the International Liaison Department, and why?
What have I done? I am too utilitarian.
17 years old dream .. I'm only 20 years old now. Just three years ago I forgot all my dreams.
My biggest dream now is to be a good official to solve problems for the people of China. This is a position I really want to be. It has nothing to do with utility, my major, but my heart and my interest.
But now I have no courage to realize my dream.
Oh, the giant in thought, the dwarf in action.
Appreciate the last sentence
Only those souls who have goals, love, passion and can stick to the end can walk out of a road and live a bigger and bigger world.
I have love and goals, but unfortunately I have no passion, real passion. I need to grow up. ...