It can be seen from your description that you are not the kind of person who takes the initiative. You just want someone to help you arrange everything in your life without thinking. Just do it. You don't have great ambitions, you just want to live a quiet and stable life.

These requirements are not very high, but it is not easy to achieve in China. Outside help is not your reliability, people still have to rely on themselves, and people have a strong heart. Your own conditions are still good, but you lack an upward heart. Try to integrate yourself into this society. If you can't change it, try to accept it.

Try to like a team sport, get involved slowly, and you will gradually like to get in touch with people.

I wish you success in your career and all the best.