In the middle of the night, I hid my mobile phone in the quilt. When I saw these words in Why Shengxiao Mo, I burst into tears. This novel is the one I read the most. What moved me may be waiting for years of persistence without hope, or living alone in a foreign country for many years. When I come back, I don't forget your initiative and stubbornness. It is said that I will cry too much every time I finish this novel, but at least I will be moved, especially when I miss someone.
Lu Feng, thousands of miles away, I know there is no you here, I always know, but I still look for you in the crowd, even if it is just a similar figure. I really miss you, but I don't want to disturb you.
When I was a freshman, I kept myself busier than in high school. I thought I was too busy to forget you.
When the girls in the club came to see our family with their boyfriends, I thought I didn't care, but my deeper loneliness betrayed me.
Holding those cold certificates is not as proud as "Lu Feng, look, I have two points more than you in math".
At the same table, you push the bottle of six walnuts on the table to me every morning, deliberately saying: I am so smart that I don't need to use my head. You should make up more. I rolled my eyes unceremoniously, but my heart was warm.
How many days and nights, how many times I can't sleep, your smiling face in my mind soothes my panic.
Apart from your smile, what impressed me the most was the way you dressed in a white shirt and carefully explained physics problems to me. Slightly long bangs covered my forehead slightly. I wrote on the draft paper with a pen and asked me if I understood. I'm a little lost in thought. I don't seem to be looking at the problem, but I am looking at you.
The place where you are is my untouchable past and a time I don't want to forget.
I was going to go home on National Day, but I got a call from my good friend Xiaomi the night before.
"Ziyun, a person is boring. I'll play with you. "
"Xu Bin doesn't want you?"
I teased her, Xiaomi is my best friend, and I don't expect her to be unhappy. To be honest, I didn't think highly of their relationship before, at least I don't think they will stick to it until now.
The years are quiet and the sunshine is slight.
But now, Xu Bin will still buy her clothes that Xiaomi likes, and the movies she wants to watch will still accompany her. As before, I sincerely wish. On the contrary, we, everyone around us at that time, were optimistic, but separated earlier than anyone else.
"No, he came home and said he would bring me delicious food."
"Just to express your love. I am used to eating too much dog food. Yes, I'd better go to your place. "
"No, zijun, you have figured it out. Do you want to start over with Lu Feng? "
"You think too much. I haven't seen it for a year and I haven't contacted it. " Xiaomi and Lu Feng are in different schools in the same city.
I haven't heard the name "Lu Feng" from others in this strange city for a long time. These two words seem to be my taboo. Even hearing similar names or words can arouse ripples in your heart. Lu Feng and I once agreed to enter the same university, imagining walking hand in hand in the university campus in the afternoon sunshine.
As a result, he passed the exam, but I failed.
I was decadent all summer, and Lu Feng encouraged me all the time. I used to be such an optimistic and cheerful girl, but I was exhausted by the college entrance examination for many years. I felt that my whole life was dark. Now that I think about it, I am indifferent.
At that time, he must be very disappointed in me. Yes, even I am about to give up. How can others save me?
There is no sound on the other end of the phone. Maybe my voice was a little low just now.
"All right, meet me at the bus stop in four hours."
I thought a lot with my eyes closed along the way, but I still had some expectations. I won't look for him, just to see the city where he lives. I don't want to know how he is doing. If he is in poor health, I will be very sad. If he gets well, I will be sad.
As soon as I got off the bus, Xiaomi immediately came over and gave me a big hug. I pinched her round face.
"Life has always been very moist and gained weight."
"Honey, it's not easy to come all the way to see me." Xiaomi took my backpack and carried it on his shoulder.
We walked on the commercial street together. As a matter of fact, I refuse to go shopping during the holidays. This crowded crowd didn't make me happy. Eating, watching movies, going to the bathroom and even walking have to wait in line. Fortunately, we just passed by today, but we still met in this vast sea of people. I don't want to say it's fate, but saying it's coincidence is really coincidence.
I followed my friend. The man on the right walks in the same direction as us, while the man on the left walks in the opposite direction. Occasionally, a tall man walked on the left and hurt my arm. I was careless and just wanted to leave quickly. Unfortunately, a familiar and vague white figure in my mind is coming in my direction. There is a row of people on the left. I haven't seen you for a year. From his previous youth to his present maturity, he also saw me and smiled at me as if knowing that he would meet me. Before I could take a look, I was pushed forward by the people behind me, and I didn't even dare to look back.
I once said that I would never let go of each other's hands, and now I pass by like this.
When people walked through this crowded street, I was a little absent-minded and fell behind several steps. Xiaomi turned and walked back.
"What's the matter, are you tired from walking?"
I looked up and the sun shone on my face.
"Xiaomi, it's sunny here, unlike me, where it's always rainy."
"I just saw Lu Feng. When I was in college, someone chased me and gave up. He said, my heart is cold. No matter how he covers it, it's not hot. When I saw Lu Feng, I found that only where he was can I see the sunshine. "
"Hey, Zijun, where are you going?"
Before Xiaomi could react, I turned and ran to the crowd.
Lu Feng, I seem to have lost the ability to love others. I can only love you.
Lu Feng, I don't want to miss you.
Lu Feng, if you are tired, it's my turn to chase you this time.
Where is the shadow of wearing a white shirt in the crowd? Red-eyed, I took out my mobile phone and dialed the number that I had in mind. It's ringing. I'm connected.
Lu Feng, I want to see you.
Zijun, look at the back.
......
After a long time, I still couldn't help expressing my doubts.
What are you doing here?
Xiaomi said, you come today. I just returned my ticket from high-speed railway station.
Then why don't you meet me at the station?
Do you want to see me?
Yes, Lu Feng came to my school several times before, but I left him because I was very busy. I am afraid of long-distance love, that there are too many excellent girls around him, and that I will forget being lonely in another city.
Why didn't you change your mobile phone number for a year? What I was afraid to hear was that the number you dialed did not exist. Then I'll never see you again.
Fool, how can you find me if you change your mobile phone number?
Lu Feng, thank you. When I turned around, you were still there.