Next, I will talk about the psychological mileage of my motivation to join the party in detail. When I first submitted my application for joining the Party, I saw someone else writing an application for joining the Party. If I hadn't written it, I would be afraid of the teacher. My classmates said I didn't want to make progress, so I followed the crowd and wrote an application. But what I wrote in the meantime was copied and learned from party member's father. In fact, I lacked a real understanding of the party at that time. Although I have attended several party classes, I still know little about the basic knowledge of the party and have no urgent desire to join the party ideologically. This is a political attitude that is not serious and serious to the party and individuals. Later, on the eve of high school graduation, I saw that some students had joined the party and gained a certain prestige among them, so I quickly wrote several ideological reports, hoping to get this honor and spiritual satisfaction one day. In fact, this is a manifestation of impure motivation to join the party. Joining the party is not to show off to others, let alone to satisfy your vanity. But to be loyal to the party, serve the people wholeheartedly, and play a vanguard and exemplary role in study and life.
When I was a freshman, I learned the basic knowledge of the Party in an Introduction to the Basic Knowledge of the Party. At the same time, I have more time and opportunities to get in touch with party member around me, and my political vision has been expanded. Seeing that there are unhealthy tendencies at present, I hope to join the Party organization, be an excellent party member and redefine the image of the Party. Now this view is very one-sided and narrow. The reason for this erroneous idea is that our understanding of the party is still too vague. We can't deny that some party member are vanguard fighters of the proletariat just because they have shortcomings, which has always affected our understanding of party spirit. A few degenerate party member cannot be equated with Party organizations, and they cannot represent the Party. After these cognitive changes, I think the most important thing before joining the party is to have a correct and comprehensive understanding of our party. My motivation to join the party was denied three times by myself, and my thoughts seemed to be inactive again. I'm afraid I'll go in the wrong direction and take a detour. At this time, my father's education gave me great enlightenment. On weekdays, I like to discuss my thoughts with my father best, because he is not only the person who knows me best, but also an old party member. He was not surprised by my repeated changes, but praised me. He said that it is my "compulsory course" to explain my understanding of the party again and again and establish a correct motivation to join the party. He told me that joining the party is your own business. Just like studying, the important thing is the ability to think independently. Observing, summarizing, extending, reading, studying and thinking all require great efforts. Some people need to keep on thinking about joining the party for a period of time or even a lifetime, including redefining their own motives for joining the party more completely. After that, I made up my mind to form my real motivation to join the party through my own study and thinking. I think I must combine the transformation of my thoughts with my actions properly, so that I can link every thought with every practice, make progress in my study and do it with experience, and really demand myself to work hard like a party member. In the study, we should be more clear about the learning purpose, correct the learning attitude, find ways to find problems, constantly improve the learning methods, and study hard. Although sometimes my grades don't improve much or even drop occasionally, I always try to get rid of the shadow of poor grades, sum up lessons, invest in new learning and persevere.
For a long time, I have been permeated with the idea that I am an activist to join the party. In group activities, I actively participate in and cooperate with everyone to complete the collective task. In life, unite your classmates, give full play to your role, do something within your power, and help and care for your classmates. For example, when you hear that your classmates are ill, you will visit and greet them. I heard that my friend was in a bad mood, so I went to comfort him. During my tenure as a class cadre, I earnestly performed my duties, injected great enthusiasm into class affairs and classmate relations, and persisted in exercising my ability to do class work well and learn professional courses well. I also used my spare time to learn the basic knowledge of party constitution and the Party, actively participated in the activities of the party class study group, and read books and articles such as Manifesto of Producers' Party, On party member Cultivation of * * * Production, Red Star Shines on China, and Development of Socialism from Utopia to Science, which greatly deepened my understanding of * * * productism and gained certain theoretical literacy and correct theoretical knowledge. As an activist to join the Party, during the application period, I regularly reported my thoughts to the Party organization and the introducer to join the Party, and actively participated in relevant activities organized by the Party organization: attending party classes, participating in study groups for party classes, and attending the party member Development Conference. All these behaviors play an important role in improving one's ideological understanding. I understand that we must persevere in striving to join the Party through practical actions. From the day you apply to join the Party, you should strive to be a veritable party member with a correct attitude and sincere efforts. As a person who actively strives to join the Party, I should not only be a qualified college student, but also be a caring person and advocate of the Party's line, principles and policies. In my daily life, I actively care about current affairs and politics, especially the news and comments on the program, line, principles and policies formulated by the party. Recently, I saw the news of the successful conclusion of the Fifth Plenary Session of the 15th Central Committee of the Communist Party of China (CPC). I am glad to learn that the meeting deliberated and adopted the Central Committee's proposal on formulating the 10th Five-Year Plan for national economic and social development, which set new goals for economic and social development in the next five years, because I will also do my part for the society and the country as the builder of this Five-Year Plan. Looking back at the past from the present starting point, a generation in the war years shouldered the heavy responsibility of national liberation with great wisdom and courage. After the Asian financial turmoil, the CPC Central Committee took the overall situation into consideration, responded flexibly and solved a series of strategic problems. Looking ahead, with the further deepening of reform, there are still many major problems to be solved in development and stability. The motherland needs development and talents. From five to fifty years, Tsinghua people has always promised to "work for the health of the motherland for fifty years". As a Tsinghua people and an activist to join the Party, I will move closer to the Party step by step, study hard and climb hard. I watched the life and death choices in June+10, 5438. This movie gave me great shock and inspiration. Because the people hate corruption, and the bureaucracy and local protectionism of some leading cadres have affected the anti-corruption process of the central government to some extent. From beginning to end, this film runs through the central government's spirit of strictly administering the party and opposing corruption. It deeply and mercilessly exposes and criticizes corruption, which makes people happy and full of confidence in the central government's anti-corruption work and firm determination. What impressed me the most was that the hero Li Gaocheng was fearless of evil, resisted temptation, and was frank and upright, which deeply planted an image of a public servant that party member should be. This film made me think about party member's consciousness and character. Should leading cadres, especially those in party member, be more vigilant? Should we be stricter with ourselves? Our title of * * * producing party member is not an amulet for those corrupt elements to violate the law and discipline. Those who discredit party flag are the most shameful people.
Based on my understanding, I think whether you have party member consciousness is the main difference between party member and the general public. Party member's consciousness is embodied in all aspects, with firm political principles and the concept of keeping close contact with and relying on the masses, because "caring for the party and the masses is more important than caring for individuals, and caring for others is more important than caring for yourself", and a high degree of organizational discipline is needed, so that we can be strict with ourselves. Finally, what party member should do most is to inherit and carry forward the party's fine traditions and strive for the party's cause and loyalty. Cultivating party member consciousness must be based on correct values of life. I once wanted to take "based on patriotism, realizing the value of life" as the motivation to join the party, but this is too general after all, because everyone has patriotic feelings and everyone is struggling to realize their own value of life. So what is the difference between party member and the masses? As a party member, we must think carefully and answer this question. Personally, I think the difference is that a capitalist must be a patriot first, and the key is that party member should sublimate his patriotic feelings, combine his strong feelings of loving the motherland with his firm belief in capitalism, and be a person who loves the motherland, has lofty ideals and firm beliefs. "For the benefit of the state and the collective, for the benefit of the people, all advanced elements with revolutionary consciousness should sacrifice their own interests when necessary". Party member's life value should be realized through dedication. The proletariat emphasizes serving the people heart and soul, which must not be understood as just serving and contributing to society, but abandoning the value orientation of personal interests. A pure "dedication" is everything, and they only have "selfless * * * production belief" in their hearts, and nothing else needs to be considered. This is both "selflessness" and "ignorance". Instead, we should think like this: Serving the people wholeheartedly means serving the people's interests wholeheartedly, making selfless contributions and never looking back, but we should also pursue the value of personal life, because each of us is responsible for society. While pursuing your own ideals, you should also have your own personal goals and give consideration to the collective interests. Some people say that it is unrealistic to just "give" and not "take". In fact, * * * party member's dedication is never sought. If there is a reward, I think party member's "contribution to society and people" is the best reward for "dedication".
After such a long time of thinking, I deeply feel that I have found my own faith and joining the party has become my need. I must become a producer in party member and devote my life to the lofty proletarian cause. The above are the specific reasons why I want to join the China * * * Production Party. Let me talk about my own ideas along the above lines. Our ultimate goal is to realize it in society. Learning is not limited to schools and classes. We should also broaden our horizons, combine the development and reform process of today's motherland, go out more, inspire thinking, and give ourselves a more comprehensive and correct positioning. In view of this idea, in order to learn more about the development of the western region, I went to Lanzhou with the practice team at the end of July this year and conducted an eight-day social investigation. But eight days is too short. No matter where we talk, our understanding is limited. The development of the western region is not a short-term topic, but also requires the struggle of several generations. This means that we have the opportunity to become participants. A recent topic has been placed in front of me. I went into the west yesterday just to deepen my understanding. Will I come here to take root tomorrow? I think I will combine the results of practice and seriously think about this problem. In addition, I want to talk about the role of student party member. From an ordinary student to a glorious China party member, this is a qualitative leap. It means that the party has put forward higher requirements and hopes for itself. After students join the Party organizationally, they should constantly strengthen their party spirit cultivation in practice, give full play to party member's vanguard and exemplary role, and strive to join the Party ideologically, because they join the Party once organizationally and once ideologically.
Party member, a student, should be Mr. party member, a renewable student. He should be strict with himself according to party member standards, just like other official party member. Party member, a student, should be an ordinary party member first. He should use his words and deeds to show that he is a working class in China and a pioneer in proletarian consciousness. Don't confuse him with an ordinary student. Party member, a student today, especially party member, a student of our generation, should have a sense of mission of the times, thus inspiring us to study hard, develop in an all-round way and shoulder the historical mission entrusted to us by this era. I think the vanguard and exemplary role of student party member should be manifested in two aspects: first, for student party member, he should be able to set an example for his classmates in his study, work and social life; For example, take the lead in studying Marxism-Leninism and Mao Zedong Thought, study the party's line, principles and policies, and accomplish professional learning tasks well; Abide by social ethics, party discipline and state laws, school rules and regulations, actively participate in various collective activities and social activities, take the initiative to care for the collective, help students, and correctly handle the relationship between individuals and the collective, individuals and others, and so on. This exemplary role should fully reflect the advanced nature of party member and truly make students realize that "this is like party member". Secondly, we should use our own actions and work to influence and drive the students to move forward together. Imagine, if even the classmates around you can't unite well, how can we unite millions of people? If a class of students can't open, how can we liberate all mankind? Perhaps this statement is a bit exaggerated, but it is indeed a problem that some of our students party member have at present. Now, some students, party member, can only stay out of it and are not good at mass work. They think that as long as they take care of themselves, others don't have to take care of themselves or don't want to take care of themselves at all. In fact, this is incorrect and does not meet the requirements of party member. As a student, party member should not only keep his advanced nature, but also take it as the driving force and foundation of his work. While making continuous progress, we should persist in encouraging our classmates, helping each other, learning from each other and making progress together. In my opinion, the most fundamental and practical obligation of student party member is to have the idea of serving the people wholeheartedly. Serving the people is not empty talk, it has rich contents, and it is not easy to do it well. The classmates around us are also part of people. In the school environment, serving the people means serving the students. This should start from the dribs and drabs, don't be conspicuous. For example, when students are found to have difficulties in study and life, they should give enthusiastic help; Students have a knot in their heart, so they should take the initiative to enlighten them; When the interests of individuals and classmates conflict, we should put our ancestors before ourselves; This seems insignificant, but it is party member's role, which is often played by himself among his classmates through these actions. In fact, students' most intuitive understanding of the Party is realized through a concrete student party member, especially the student party member around them. In a word, party member's image directly affects the image of the Party, its prestige among the people, its nature and combat effectiveness. As a student, party member should attach great importance to the role of his party member, so as to influence his classmates around him. As a party activist, I also have my own advantages, such as strong sense of responsibility, caring for the collective, diligent study, strong personality and good self-control. But I still have many shortcomings and problems. First of all, when studying the basic courses of professional knowledge, I feel that I am not very enterprising and have poor initiative, mainly because I can only give consideration to understanding, learn less and think less. Sometimes I retreat when I encounter setbacks, because I have insufficient confidence in myself and always give up learning because of "limited ability". In fact, this is a wrong idea of being afraid of suffering. Although the ability to analyze and solve problems is limited, don't be pessimistic, because without solid study, you will have to invest more confidence and energy. If we all give up, there is no need to talk about progress.
In life, sometimes I am too strong, thinking that I have to intervene in many things to care about the collective. In fact, this is just a blind enthusiasm. We should cultivate our ability to analyze and observe problems. Of course, the collective should care, but it should be effective. I can do my best at what I am good at, and at the same time I can cheer for others when they are doing things. The effect is better than doing nothing and paying no attention to anything. In the process of theoretical study, I always read books on impulse, lacking a continuous and repetitive process. It may take a week or half a month to finish reading the other half in one breath, which is naturally not as good as the gradual effect. As a result, I get twice the result with half the effort because of my incoherent thinking and far-reaching influence. From the perspective of personal temperament and moral cultivation, I feel that I have a bad temper. Sometimes it hurts the harmony between classmates and leaves a bad impression on others because of some trivial things. I clearly understand that this is actually an irrational performance, and this shortcoming is serious. Serious words will affect many aspects of my study and life. I don't think anyone dares to accept a grumpy man to serve him. This means that if you go your own way, you will lose the mass base, which is very dangerous, and it is even more impossible to create an image among your classmates. In fact, the training and education of the party organization and the help of my classmates are important to me, but the most important thing is that I can consciously accept the education of the party and demand myself according to the requirements of the party. Whether you can become party member or not depends on whether you have the conditions of party member. Speaking of it, it is basically whether you are strict with yourself. At this point, I don't think I have done enough. Many of my shortcomings and mistakes actually stem from this. Many times I know how to do a good job, but I can't put it into practice because of inertia. Not being strict with yourself encourages the lax atmosphere, thus forming a vicious circle of "if you don't do it well, you don't want to do it well again." These are just some of my obvious shortcomings. In fact, there must be many other shortcomings and mistakes in my thoughts and actions. I am trying to find and correct; Moreover, I look forward to correcting my shortcomings and mistakes with the supervision and help of teachers and classmates, because everyone is a mirror that reflects my words and deeds, and what you put forward is exactly what I need to correct urgently. Any party member is not born with excellent character, but the result of acquired study and practice. Party member, a producer of * * *, must persist in theoretical study and practical training if he wants to fight for * * * productism all his life.
In the tide of reform, opening up and developing market economy, facing the grand task of building China in the 2 1 century, besides learning science and culture, the most fundamental thing is to learn Marxism-Leninism, Mao Zedong Thought and especially Deng Xiaoping Theory. In the future, we should actively participate in the great practice of reform, opening up and modernization, and transform the objective world while transforming the subjective world. I will constantly clear my mind of all non-proletarian thoughts, make my words and deeds conform to the fundamental interests of the party, the country and the people, and train myself to be a party member with strong party spirit. The ideal is lofty, but we must proceed from reality. I will work hard with practical actions from now on, strictly demand myself with a party member standard, and strive to close the distance with the party member standard. Ask the party to test me.