Whenever people say that I always like to doubt others and am too wary of others, or that there are no parents in the world, I want to say, will others say so after my experience?
A few days ago, I saw a girl who was sold by her mother for 200 thousand and committed suicide for the second time. On the other hand, I'm no better. I tried to kill myself. My hand is broken and my nerve is broken. It's May, and I'm still recovering.
The difference is that in 2005, after I was forced to get married again and again, the man I didn't like originally, but my mother took someone else's red envelope behind my back, one day in 900 yuan, and the next day was 2600 yuan. The local customs will only accept this person if he agrees. If the man gives it and then hangs up, the woman will not return it. But when I said I didn't like it, my mother accepted it, which really made me sad and annoying. As a result, I gave the man a few hundred dollars on the basis of my own refund. After that, I deliberately changed my name and never wanted to go back to that home. My heart is too tired. But now I want to be selfish and plan to travel to Kaili, Guizhou for the Spring Festival. Because I miss your grandfather who is nearly 80 years old, my family has added a nephew and your cousin. With grandma's strong guarantee that I won't be forced to go on a blind date, I will go home for the New Year. But unexpectedly, I got into their net.
This is a love story woven by three families. This poison will never be removed. It is ten thousand times stronger than COVID-19.
Those sisters and brothers-in-law who have been thinking about my closest relatives, whose blood is thicker than water, packaged a punk who loved playing mahjong since childhood and was only in the fifth grade of primary school with his villain as a descendant of the War to Resist US Aggression and Aid Korea. His grandfather was a teacher, his parents were hardworking and kind, and he had a battlefield at home, a harvester, a farmer and no shortage of economic resources. His parents are only 47 years old, but I don't want to, which makes everyone laugh and scold. Especially the woman who betrayed your uncle in the end, said that he was so tall, so handsome, and the only child in the family, so rich, so kind and obedient to me, and six years younger than me. Why not get married?
I told them that I didn't like him and it was a little strange to see him. His eyes are white and dull, his eyes are black and his lips are black. He is not an addict, is he? And speaking so well, I believe many people will set him up and find their own girlfriends! But no matter how smart a person is, he will always be confused. What's more, they all came prepared one by one and colluded. They just want me to get married and make money. I never thought that I would eventually marry such a poor family. I didn't realize this was inevitable until I gave birth to Yi for one or four months. Drugs, I'm just a collusion between the interests of two drug trafficking families. When your uncle's brother was sentenced to 13 years for drug trafficking, maybe your uncle had already taken drugs, or he wouldn't have been brought to me by your third aunt after I got married for more than a year. He tricked me and my partners into opening a shop again, but he made me live a life of fear.
Is the woman in the video very gentle? How are the children? I want to tell her what my life will be like if I don't recognize you as my sister. You took your husband to the house I rented in manholes, and he went out to take drugs again. I was awakened by the crying of you and the baby. You have a mobile phone in one hand and a child in the other. You tell the man at the other end that if you don't return it, you will throw the child from the third floor. I held the child in my arms and fed him with my own milk because he was only three months younger than my daughter. I didn't know your uncle was taking drugs, because he was still silly and distressed by this snake-hearted sister. Because of him, his uncle was afraid of implicating him and wouldn't let him live there. He also called your third aunt an expert in raising Korea in front of me, neglecting her work, playing cards and gambling, and now taking drugs. See what your third aunt can do now, how to make money to raise a man with a child just full moon. I was angry, but I quarreled with him. As long as I think about what my third aunt did to me, I regret that I should have driven them away like his uncle, or, no matter how much your third aunt cried, I should directly find someone in a drug rehabilitation center to take your uncle away. So I don't have to worry about spending money and effort to accompany them to get clean. Or hurt her with cruel words in the most painful time, just like she did to me. How will she feel? Will it force her to jump off a building with her children? Is there any chance to hurt me again and again and denigrate me? How dare your grandmother call me crazy and talk nonsense about her good daughter and son-in-law Even if I really committed suicide last time, there are still two people in this world who know what I said is true because she wrote the prescription. And the drug addict can also do a CT scan, which shows that his nerves are damaged.
What do you want me to thank them for? My sister, my closest and favorite family member, if I really want to thank my parents for giving me life, I have not been separated since I was born. Like that little girl, I was buried underground because I was a girl when I was born. Thank you for your vicious, let me know really kind and loving people, and I won't lose my humanity for hundreds of people like you.
Looking at you now, I really don't know how I got through it. Repeated domestic violence, begging for family, asking the police, asking the women's Federation, asking the court, and complaining again and again failed to make you successfully divorce him. I survived because my friends encouraged me, my clients gave me hope and my colleagues helped me.
If it hadn't been for the threat of his father Jiang Delong, I would have taken care of the safety of your grandfather's family. I would have left him long ago, because no one could realize that he was a gambler who finally found a job and there were drug dealers at home. In their words, it's awesome, or I haven't caught it for more than ten years, and another relative of your family was shot. If there is now (2009), to put it bluntly, I'm just the person your uncle used to curry favor with them, so I'm destined to come here as a cow and horse.
I think about how I gave birth to my second child and how much pain and inhuman torture I experienced. It's a long story After living in Ringo for six months, I hardly lived with him. He likes gambling very much. It's normal to spend 12 thousand a night. He gambled all his money before he got his salary, because his employees and bosses are like this. Feed him at work, lose to him after work, and then eat and drink together. His life is very happy and your grandfather is proud of him. If you want your father to get all the money back from the local rich woman in Dongguan, or to have a grandson with another woman, he will come to us again if he has no money. And his relatives also blamed me for his appearance, because his accusation and my contradiction almost killed him with a wine bottle at the dinner table in Daoxian County.
This is 20 13. Your grandmother had an operation, and I left my job again. I don't know how many times I was forced to lose my job. Every time I set out with confidence, I can only work for a week, half a month, January, and never three months. It's all because you and your grandmother are in hospital, or because I was injured by his domestic violence, miscarriage and serious illness, and no one paid me, so I can only work as a temporary worker and keep fit for nearly a year. Until the Spring Festival of 20 14, I accompanied you at your grandparents' home for the New Year in the laughter of the whole village, because your father once said that he betrayed me. In the year he spent in Ningyuan, the rich man insisted on going home for the New Year. Even if I wanted to have you, he didn't give me a penny, so he didn't go home for the New Year on 20 14. I didn't expect it at first, but I heard from your grandmother that you couldn't come back after listening to me. I haven't laughed or talked for days. I went back to find you. Seriously, I don't want to stay for a minute, but my mother has no money. I can only bear it, but in the end, I let your third grandfather's house and your fourth aunt's house think that your father really found a rich woman or a rich second generation girl, openly provoked me, scolded me, and said that his cousin didn't want me and still lived in his house. My two daughters took it away if they could, and they stayed here if they wanted to get a bargain. I'll never forget that day, the language and appearance of their family, and Uncle Wu (a person with whom I have never been in conflict). From that day on, I told myself that no matter how hard and tired I am, I will never leave you, and even if I shed the last bit of blood, I won't let you go back to that home.
Because I don't want to see other people's children singing and dancing, and you are crying. Others are learning to draw and play with various toys, while you are learning to smoke, take drugs, make up and play mahjong. Others are healthy and healthy, but you are constantly suffering from minor illnesses. You are seriously ill twice every six months, and your life hangs between ten minutes. Because I won't leave you, I have no family from now on. I will naturally help them. They have no obligation to help me. I can only trouble my friends and school again and again.
What about your father? What did this man give us in the name of my husband,
Only hurt. He defeated many mobile phones, computers, sofas, beds and motorcycles at home. My life is nothing but endless lies and changing jobs again and again, because I was forced to go to the hospital, the police station, the court and the women's Federation halfway, but I got nothing. I dream of signing bills to make money and pay off debts, and then taking you away. Go to a place that won't remind me of pain and injury, and live my life quietly.
Many people will ask me to abandon you and find another man, but my mother doesn't want you to be like me, not knowing what your parents' love is, or growing up in abuse. She is more afraid that you will let them get involved in drugs maliciously or take them to transport drugs. My parents don't treat me like a child, and I can't leave you like this. I never hurt anyone on my own initiative, but I can't live without hurting my children. So for so many years, I took you and made you suffer a lot. Compared with today's children, you are tired, you have no training class, and you can't play as you like. If you miss your mother and want to go to Shenzhen to study, you must work hard to manage yourself and don't want your mother to live in fear every day. I don't want you to study on your mobile phone every day. In fact, you watch videos every day, don't eat or drink, don't go to the toilet, don't study or do your homework. My eyes are nearsighted, but I still can't control it. By the time the class is over from the epidemic, you have completely changed, your advantages have disappeared, but your disadvantages have increased. Causing mom's life to be more chaotic. Every success is hard-won, and everyone's money is not blown by the wind. So mom wants you to actively do housework and take care of yourself every day from now on. My mother will work hard to pay off the debts we owe.
Finally, say goodbye to your so-called father.
Since he doesn't want to support you, he can't support you, even after I committed suicide because of anger and depression. He won't give you living expenses and tuition fees, so he will call you filial piety when he thinks of it, such as his grandmother's death or Tomb-Sweeping Day. Even if I am killed one day, please let a caring person adopt you. You got here with the help of credit cards, loans and many good people. I don't want you to go back to that inhuman place and become such people. I hope that the country will build so many prisons that those wicked people will change their opportunities again and again, and build some houses to give people with wrong marriages a safe haven and a healthy and safe environment for their children.