After reading the author's story, I felt mixed. I not only feel very inspirational, but also feel distressed and empathetic, and I am extremely glad that I am lucky enough.
In the face of family changes, the departure of relatives, huge economic pressure and difficult study and living environment, the author finally persisted. What supports him is the belief of going out through reading, so that he can see a wider world and make his future life less bitter.
Perhaps there are not a few people who have this experience. Every poor child has some difficult experiences that others don't know. Every story is completely different, but it has a * * * nature-breaking through class barriers through reading. As Cheng Meng said in his speech "Learning Materials": "The course of schooling for farmers' children is roughly like this: from rural areas to primary schools in township centers, junior high schools in districts and counties, to key high schools in cities, and finally to key universities in big cities, just like a kite, it leaves home again and again, flies to more prosperous places, and returns to the home at the other end of the line again and again, as if it has crossed different social worlds."
Just like Tara in You Fly to Your Mountain, she struggled desperately in the face of domestic violence, ideological imprisonment, lack of education and the danger of repeating her mother's fate. Finally, she saw a wider world through reading, lived a completely different life, looked at herself and the world she had lived in from a higher perspective, and flew to the "mountain" where she loved and belonged. This is the significance of her desperate reading. This meaning is also ours.
No matter how hard life is, you can bear it, but retaining self-esteem is the last stubbornness. Therefore, the author will feel depressed when he can't afford the tuition and his clothes are worn out, which is the reason why he studies hard, because the vanity of winning honors in front of everyone is the great motivation for his continued efforts and the only way for him to regain his poor self-esteem.
I am particularly familiar with this experience. Because I was not rich since I was a child, others had beautiful stationery when I was a child, but I didn't, so I studied hard and won the first place in my class and was proud in front of everyone. When I grow up, others have beautiful clothes, but I don't, so I try to lose weight and keep fit, and express my unyielding attitude through my beautiful figure and temperament from the inside out. After graduation, others can get a good job through family background, but I don't, so I try my best to take the postgraduate entrance examination and hate boring office workers through a full postgraduate life.
I know that sometimes these others seem to work hard, which will make them very tired and hard. But the reality is cruel, because at the beginning, people like us have already lost, so inferiority is innate and goes hand in hand. We always think we are inferior, so we always want to show our low starting point in other aspects, which doesn't mean we can lose in the end. At least in terms of dignity, we should strive for it ourselves, which shows that we are indomitable and can be strong.
And this dignity of wanting to stand is not only about ourselves. My father took my notice of graduate study and said, "You have been admitted to graduate school, which is my biggest income this year." . I understand that this dignity is also related to families who work hard but want to live with more dignity than other working people.
Human feelings are warm and cold, and life and death are separated. He experienced it in his early years; Life is not easy, and he has to bear it alone, so he is forced to taste it early. Although we feel sorry for him, we have to admit that he is strong enough after all this. So he would say, "The future is destined to face more complicated situations, but because of these small things, I have the courage and patience to face them."
When faced with the blow of the failure of the first postgraduate entrance examination, one of my teachers said, "Everything we experience in life, good or bad, is making us grow." After the experience, I really realized that even if no one is willing to taste that bitter experience, we will be more confident to face the world after carrying that road, and this experience will eventually become our shield and medal to meet the uncertainty of the future.
As the inspiring saying goes-your suffering, loss of food, responsibility, sin and pain will eventually turn into light and light your way!
The author has experienced all kinds of things since childhood, which is enough to plant a seed in his heart-the world is not friendly. But he has also felt the warmth of being helped, so he is still willing to believe that the world is worth looking forward to. He also issued the voice "If you can do something to make others' lives better, you will earn it in this life". "
I had a similar experience with the author. Because my family is poor, I have known how important money is since I was a child. I witnessed with my own eyes the bitterness that other people's parents and my parents were treated differently when doing things. How difficult it was to live without money, and how embarrassed and overwhelmed my father was when he was forced to borrow money. So the world I feel is not full of food and clothing, and I have never felt what a greenhouse looks like.
But fortunately, I have always been lucky since I was a child. In high school, the head teacher organized donations from the whole class. In college, caring people helped me to go to school. The students voted for me as much as possible when selecting scholarships. The unexpected surprise of being taken care of in my life made me feel lucky enough. So I always believe that there is always warmth in this world, and I will try my best to share what I feel good, because I understand the feeling of being taken care of and cherished. So I also want to do something to make the world around me warmer.
Like "Will it get better when you grow up?" The book tells us: "Take your time, don't worry, life has given you a difficult problem, but one day it will give you an answer". I always believe that our starting point cannot determine the end point. Through reading, we can see a bigger and better world, and everything we experience is a gift in life. I always believe that this world full of love and warmth is worth embracing and looking forward to.
Therefore, the doctor finally carries everything, and the future can be expected. And can we also consider what to do and hand over a "doctoral thesis" to our future self?