When I was pregnant, I couldn't sleep all night, and I didn't realize it was anxiety. Because when I am in a hurry to write my thesis, I also write at night and sleep during the day. Later, I found that my mood fluctuated greatly and I was easily influenced. Sometimes when I hear a song, I cry alone. But on the whole, the days of pregnancy are still very happy.
The baby was born, very healthy and lovely.
Then I was forced to be grounded. Because I have been instilling the scientific method of confinement in my family for a few months before giving birth to a baby, I didn't suffer much. The most embarrassing thing is that relatives and friends come to see the baby at home and give me all kinds of kind suggestions: I can't keep blowing air conditioners, I can't wear hats and socks, I can't eat raw fruits ... Then you see that my baby hasn't gained weight, and you regret to say: No milk? Hahaha, it's a pity that my milk is very good and the nutrition has grown on my baby.
After giving birth to a baby, I can't sleep well and need to feed every few hours. I always feel very anxious when I think about my baby's growth. Because I was still studying in Australia at that time, my husband worked in Shenzhen and usually traveled everywhere; Both are in Chengdu. Therefore, where the baby will live in the future is a very big problem for us. My husband used to study in Australia and didn't like the old-age life in Australia. My parents made it clear that they didn't want to go to Australia, and my in-laws couldn't live without their company in Chengdu. At the thought of these questions, I was so anxious that I couldn't sleep all night and had to pretend not to let my parents know. My temper has also become very grumpy. I often quarrel with my husband over trifles. I feel how I married a man who doesn't care about myself at all. I often cry alone for hours at night. At that time, I really felt that the world had nothing to do with myself except the baby.
After giving birth to the baby for two weeks, the baby's diet was basically regular, and I began to write a paper. I have to nurse at night, I often can't sleep, and I have to cheer up during the day. I was really sleepy, so I made half a pack of coffee to drink. My husband and I had a quarrel about drinking coffee. I remember I wasn't pregnant at that time, because I had research cooperation with professors in Hong Kong, so when I called her to talk about research, she said, hey, why don't you transfer to Hong Kong to study for a doctorate? There are many scientific research projects, funds and opportunities here. The ranking of Mexican universities is really good, but they can't get projects, and only have certificates after they come out. I thought about it for a moment and immediately agreed, and the application was settled in one month. But my idea at that time was: read two PhDs together. Later, my tutor in Hong Kong said that the academic circle was too small, and my two tutors in Australia also worked as researchers in our center. Sooner or later, we have to study together, so we must explain it to the school and let it handle it. Later, I got an offer to explain the situation to the school. Of course, the school here in Hong Kong asked me to drop out of school. It's a pity, after all, the research has started, and it's done smoothly, and it's the first time that the college has obtained the doctoral candidate qualification in recent years. Strangely, however, when I got the doctoral offer from the Hong Kong University, I felt very calm and happy, and felt that a long-troubled problem had been solved.
At the beginning of school, I will give my 6-month-old baby to my parents, go to Hong Kong to study by myself, and then go home to Shenzhen on weekends. I am often anxious and feel very flustered. I think I have to work very hard, or I'm sorry for the baby. I also want to start the topic early, collect data and take my baby with me.