Tisch
It's really the wrong time, the wrong place and the wrong person, which has made a wrong love!
Is it because of love, or what? It doesn't matter anymore! The important thing is that nothing can go back! How many times have I asked myself: Do you regret it? Although I dare not answer! But I know that if God lets everything start all over again, there will still be such a heartbreaking feeling! Unless you are heartless! How difficult it is!
This is a season of falling leaves, full of sadness. In short, the move made me fall in love with a girl who doesn't belong to me! No promises! There is no hope! Even if I want to take a phone call from him, even if I just say a word to him!
Because of him, I had a painful period: lovesickness, waiting, loneliness, guilt and self-blame. . . . . Wait, "sour, bitter and spicy"! Just not "sweet"! Even if there is an occasional party, it is always so short! He doesn't know what I really want. Maybe I never wanted to know! I may not exist in his heart at all, but that's it, I still can't bear to leave him! Because even if others think that he lives a nourishing and fulfilling life, I can still feel his inner suffering! This is an unspeakable pain! Pressure from a good girl's self-commitment! I can obviously feel his fatigue when I am with him! So I don't want to give him any more pressure and trouble! Just wait for him quietly when you can still bear all kinds of hardships! Love him silently! When I can't wait and love any longer, I think it's time to leave him!
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When I decided to love, I didn't hesitate.
Therefore, when I see those flowers in spring and finally throw themselves into the earth with infinite tenderness, I will say to you with tears: "You are the earth, and I am the one who was smashed into pieces."
So, please believe me, the shadow that haunts your heart is definitely not me.
Between love and not love, there is no free time and space for me to choose. Your ambiguity aggravates the pain of having to give up.
So, when you see those spring flowers, please believe me! As I said, I decided to love without hesitation.
When I decided to love, I had given everything I had.
Because, in my heart, there is nothing but this uneasy home. It is its nourishment that my honest heart will face you with such a bright red and pure beating without reservation.
Because, if my love is not returned to you, I will have nothing. This heart, so moist, will dry up and crack in an instant and disappear in front of your indifference.
The heart should not be a desert. Can you, after your sudden fall, not steal my only source of livelihood and disappear without guilt?
Because I have nothing to exchange with you except this uneasy love in my heart.
When I decided to love, I was already stubborn.
Even knowing that your hangover is sadness experienced outside my world. You must not remember, under that thin crescent moon, you told me with tears. Your deep silhouette under the street lamp once caused a meteor to fall.
Even if the long-cherished wish of giving a meteor that night will never come true! I am still, still persistent.
Persistence has always kept me alert and never let that love fall asleep. What about you? I must only remember being deeply hurt and drunk. To you, I may just be a fleeting faint fire behind you.
Even though, my heart of fire is extremely hot in your hangover grief; And your back, have you seen my smaller and darker color?
However, why does all this still happen indifferently? Why when I decided to love, I couldn't convince myself: Never mind, don't sigh, this is just another Shakespeare play, and just as I was about to go on stage, you made a hasty curtain call. Fate predestined me that the more beautiful things are, the more untouchable they are. Slowly ending is my only ending.
However, why is my heart obstinately firm? Why do you have to choose love? That is, you refuse to let reason control your emotions. You are desperate to sell yourself to a romantic entanglement, just for your indifferent stare at me!
How to make me decide to love! At this moment when the curtain is about to open. When I have no hesitation, when I give everything, when I am stubborn and stubborn, you will suddenly disappear in front of me, leaving me alone to face the mess that I can no longer cut.
So, how can I just decide and indulge in the accumulation of wages! Because, after everything has happened, how can I face my soul that has been hit hard by fate!
However, when I decided to love, how long did I love you unconsciously?
Tisso
The honor of knowing and loving you in my life is the most lingering thing in my memory, and it is also the biggest pain in my heart. When I was in junior high school, I was shy and introverted, and I would blush when I talked to girls, so I never opened my mouth to talk to you, just peeked at you silently. You are also a very quiet girl and seldom talk to others. Now I want to tell you loudly that I have changed myself, and I can talk to anyone at any time in qiaqia. I change myself, but I can't change history.
On the night when everyone else sleeps soundly, I often miss you watching the quiet night sky alone. You will appear in my dream from time to time on a quiet night like yours, reminding me that I still like you. Originally, I thought you were waiting for the day when you went to college. You wanted to go to your school to work and live, and you wanted to get to know you again. Who knows Huahua told me that you, like many rural children, no longer go to school; Like a cloud, drifting into the vast sea of people, there is no news. Can a rural junior high school graduate live a rich and happy life besides being lucky or talented? I think most of them will eventually guard the "treasure land" handed down from generation to generation! How many "common people" desires are bound?
In my wandering life, I have been longing to meet you unexpectedly. Find a chance to release my imprisoned heart for several years, to love you, take care of you and care about you. Maybe I can't be perfect, but I will try my best to give you happiness.
Just like the song "I really, really love you". Without your news, I am just like the person in the song Lilac, suffering from loneliness and loneliness, just like walking into an empty grave.
If you can hear this letter, can you contact me? Even if I can't touch your heart, I will look for you with practical actions until that day. ......