Even when Siqi was taken to a small hotel by Li Guohua in the book, some psychological activities were, "She asked the teacher happily" or "The man I love snores very well, which is a secret, and I won't tell him".
Obviously, being violated by the teacher has plagued her for countless days and nights in her life, making her miserable and finally suffering from mental illness. So why didn't she refuse the teacher, and would rather be taken into small hotels and apartments by the teacher again and again?
I don't understand.
But when I saw it for the second time, I suddenly understood.
In the educational environment of China, most children are taught to listen to their teachers and parents. When Siqi was first violated by her teacher, she wrote in her diary, "I feel like I saw something through the ceiling. I can see my mother talking on the phone upstairs." The porridge is full of my testimonials. I also know that when you don't know how to answer an adult, you had better say yes. " Siqi's parents ignore her, and sometimes they are even strong. They just pay close attention to their children's good grades for quick success and instant benefit to satisfy their little vanity. Moreover, Si Qi's right to speak in family life is rare, and he can only passively accept it most of the time.
This led Si Qi, 0/3 years old, to say only five words when she was first attacked by her teacher Li Guohua:' No, I won't'. After that, I said sorry to the teacher and felt that my homework was not done well. Thinking from Siqi's point of view, she was too young to handle this matter, so when faced with this teacher who is 37 years older than her and admires her at ordinary times, her first reaction can only be "I won't". Not "I don't want it" or "you can't".
Li Guohua said to Si Qi,' This is how teachers love you'. Siqi is a sensitive girl with strong self-esteem. It was the girl who tore her clothes that made her feel more painful than herself. She couldn't accept the fact that she was raped by her teacher, so in order to alleviate her inner pain, she told herself to fall in love with her teacher, otherwise it would be too painful. The person you love can do anything for you. But this idea just makes an absurd excuse for such an absurd thing.
Siqi has actually turned to her family and friends for help, but all she got was incomprehension and disgust. When Siqi told Yi Ting that she was with the teacher, Yi Ting said to Siqi, "You are disgusting, I can't talk to you". Siqi showed no intention to ask her mother at the dinner table, why all kinds of education are available in our family, but there is no sex education. My mother was surprised and said to Si Qi, "What is sex education? Sex education is for those who need sex. " Adults have been absent from this course and thought there was no class. ?
I tried to understand her pain from Siqi's point of view. Standing in her predicament, I felt pale and desolate, just like a drowning child struggling in the sea of Wang Yang, so lonely and helpless. In order to survive, she had to swim desperately to the passing boat, and this "boat" is the so-called "love" of the teacher.
Lin said that this book is not an angry book, nor a book of accusations, but a very degenerate book. Misuse of a Confucian saying is called "do what you know you can't do." Siqi is doomed to be destroyed and can't turn back, because her heart is finally full of tenderness, love and even sex.
At that time, Qi Qi, who was only 13 years old, had just started the train of life. Before she had her own cognitive system about love, literature and even sex, Li Guohua forced her to turn in an unhealthy direction. So she can't fall in love with boys her age normally. She doesn't know that in love, you have to be ambiguous before you confess. After saying goodbye, she can hold hands and kiss after holding hands. All she knew about love was a small hotel, but the teacher put it in her mouth and she said she was sorry. Siqi wrote in her diary: "She felt that she was not worthy of the boy who confessed to her. She feels that she is rotten orange juice and thick soup, a rose and lily crawling with eggs, and a Polaris that clearly exists in a brightly lit city, but no one can see it or need it. " Although Siqi keeps telling herself that it doesn't matter what she does with the person she loves, deep down, she still can't convince herself that she and her teacher hate herself.
There is a fragment in the book that makes me feel ridiculous. Li Guohua was with several teachers and actually discussed with each other how to play with the little girl in the cram school. When he was watching Primary Seven in Li Guohua, the male teacher in the same class helped him take Primary Seven to his apartment. After Xiao Qi was raped, she went to see her boyfriend. After her boyfriend found out that she had lost her virginity, she abandoned her in disgust. When my parents found her, they just said mercilessly, do you think you can still get married like this? In order to expose Li Guohua's evil deeds, Xiao Qi publicized the rape case on the Internet, but he was humiliated and abused by netizens.
Just like the story of Adam and Eve, sexual temptation is always a woman's original sin. Li Guohua stood on the platform and looked at the young girl's face below. His legs ached, which made him feel confident in men's rights. But who gave this confidence? Isn't it public opinion violence that this society points fingers at women who have lost their virginity?
This is also reflected in the movie Carnival. My mother blamed her daughter for being raped, thinking that she shouldn't wear those skirts, not only beating her, but also burning her clothes. Shouldn't we focus on the powerful government official who raped his daughter? Why does the whole world think that it is the girl's fault that the girl is sexually assaulted, and even she thinks it is her fault? Doesn't this show that society has double standards for men and women on the issue of unfair sexual relations?
Therefore, seduction and rape are social murders. This cannot be done by one person, if the social system and public opinion can give the perpetrators more severe punishment and give the victims enough understanding and protection. I believe that the proportion of such incidents will definitely decrease.