It is best to follow the Buddhist Dojo, seek good knowledge, establish correct knowledge, convert to precepts and learn Buddhism well! As for what I did wrong before, I can just repent.

At present, there are many heretics attached to Buddhism, so you can look at the enlightenment of the ancestors of past dynasties and study the three conversions well! There is no amitabha in the south!

I suggest you take a look at Three Dialogues and Reveals by Zen Master Jie of Wutai Mountain, which is available online. amitabha