Like many ordinary stories, I am a poor student and the only college student in the village. My school is actually very ordinary, but it is an undergraduate, and the college entrance examination results are the first in the county. Grandpa said it was a champion. He insisted on giving a banquet. Our family is poor, and finally we see hope. Finally, someone is going to study in Beijing.
However, they don't know how much I feel inferior in front of my classmates in the city, how hard I study Mandarin and practice English, and how I pay my tuition every year. My father lost his temper with me for the first time when I accidentally mentioned that I could earn 500 yuan a month as a tutor. He thinks I have earned so much money that I don't know how to honor the elderly. I didn't get up the courage to accompany Li Ming to the AIDS testing center for examination. The next afternoon, I went to the testing center alone to get the results, and I came out of the testing center with the results. I dare not look. I walked straight past two palms, and I trembled and opened the report card soaked with sweat from the palms. "No!" At that moment, regardless of the strange eyes of passers-by, I cried like nobody's watching. When I got home, facing my husband's frightened eyes, I threw myself into his arms and choked and said, "It's okay, it's okay!" "Li Ming heaved a sigh of relief. You know, it's silly to send it home to pay for my brother's tuition.
My life can be said to be a professional smile on the surface, but my inner excitement is like a blowout, thanks to that mysterious person! It's dark. I have been studying, taking classes, taking exams and making money. My classmates all say that I am a cheapskate. Come to me whenever you have the chance. They said half jokingly, hey, I heard that you will do anything as long as you can make money. I must pretend not to care: yes, I will. Half of the hard-earned money is for my tuition and the other half is for my younger brother and sister to study at home. My hometown is very mysterious to me: how promising I am, not only for myself, but also for my brothers and sisters. When my brothers and sisters write to me, they always say: Brother, I also want to go to Beijing to study in university! They don't know my pain. I don't want anyone to see my pain except her.
She is my next junior. I picked her up at the orientation party, helped her with her luggage and found a bed. She insisted on inviting me to dinner, so I ate. After eating, I paid the bill, took her around the school and helped her find her way.
Later, she said that that's when she began to like me. She is tall and thin, especially silent and preoccupied. I didn't even look at her when people said she was a little beauty. Yes, I was thinking about what to do with the meal this week after paying the bill. I didn't want to find a girlfriend, let alone a fashionable and beautiful city girl like her. As a result, she often comes to me, attends our class and asks others about me. What moved me particularly was that on my birthday, she bought a cake and waited for me at the school gate. I went to be a tutor and didn't come back until 10 in the evening. She waited for me for six hours in the cold winter wind. No one has been so kind to me since I was a child. I took the cake from her hand, held her hand and warmed her.
She said, I know you are under a lot of pressure. Don't be afraid. Can we share it? She was so naive, so was I. People who are crazy about love can do anything and say anything.
We found a small house near the school and lived together. I have decided to send her to graduate school, bought her a lot of books, and let her take the postgraduate entrance examination. Every day, we have classes together, attend classes together, eat in the canteen together, go out to work at night, and she waits for me at home. She bought discounted fruits, peeled them one by one and cut them into pieces for me to eat. She also learned to cook with a honeycomb briquet stove for the first time ... I know that she loves me so much, and I am devoted to her.
It is said that love costs the most, but I didn't spend much money and sent 300 yuan more to my family. She said it was for my sister to buy new clothes, so that we could have the cheapest food this month.
She talked about me at home, and both parents asked to meet. I was fully prepared, but I was shocked by their family. Her family lives in a very high-end duplex house with luxurious decoration. * * * Mom said that because she is an only child, she hopes to live together after marriage. Her father has been frowning and looking at my worn jeans and old shirts. I think this contrast between the rich and the poor is too much like a scene in a movie or a novel, which is really hard to accept.
I can't forget what her father said to me: my family Nannan has never suffered anything since she was a child, nor has she been wronged. This is the responsibility of our parents. Young man, can you do it? I didn't answer. I know I can't do it. At the same time, I also know how much she sacrificed to be with me. Don't live in a good house or dormitory, follow me to squeeze into a small bungalow, get dressed and wear sportswear for many years. In the past, Summer Xu and Wei Shi were walking in the street with lights on, but they were thinking about the end of the world. That restaurant is newly opened. Her father must drive the whole family to dinner. Now she eats boiled cabbage with me. She scrimped and saved to help me pay my tuition. All this is what I can give her. A poor lover can give her so much, but she is asked to pay endlessly, from time to material things. She said: loving you won't be bitter. But my heart hurts, really hurts, as if the whole person is going to be torn apart. I can't choose my background, but why did she choose me and such a heavy burden?
Sure enough, her family didn't agree. * * * Mom also asked her if I did something despicable when I moved in with me. I can't help but feel that she is such a quiet and elegant girl, with delicate eyes and a little coquettish. She smiles like a child and is always easy to put into a boy's heart. She walked quietly through the shabby and unfamiliar corridor of the school, feeling the eyes of four children all the way. However, when he finally meets face to face, she will suddenly feel sweet and nervous, but he still has nothing to say and keeps smiling and turning away. Speaking of it, her parents really took great pains, and on the surface, they did not break us up. In fact, they have been encouraging her to study abroad. She also happily said to me: Let's apply together, and we will study abroad together. I smiled and said yes. I didn't tell her that my brother failed in the college entrance examination and had to repeat his studies for one year. My sister is in senior three. I found more jobs and advised her to move back to the dormitory, deliberately alienating her day by day and not letting her know. Because she is so cheerful and lively and a little careless, I don't know that I actually have the idea of breaking up.
I forced her to recite the words. We study English together most of the time. JiJinJin face suddenly became very terrible. He turned quickly, then picked up his steps and ran. When I think of this scene afterwards, there will only be a stiff smile on his mouth. His mind was blank, thinking that he had lost everything and didn't care about his life. Language, she said, I think you don't seem to be very kind to me. I said no, it's good for you to study hard. Aren't you going abroad to study? I waited until she finished the GRE exam, and I helped her send out resumes, materials and applications. I am busier than herself. She began to hesitate more and more. What about you? What about you? I said I was easy. I am a gunman, and I did well in the exam. What are you afraid of? I don't look at her when I say these words, because my eyes will reveal the truth.
Finally, I waited for the OFFER and finally breathed a sigh of relief. I called * * * Mom: Auntie, Nannan can study abroad. Don't worry. * * * Mom hesitated to ask if you followed the "No need." Pearl said, "That will do." Going? I said I'm not going. I have a family to take care of. I sincerely hope Nannan will be happy all his life. Unfortunately, I can't, so I will never involve her. * * * Mom cried on the phone and said that you are a good boy and considerate of your parents. I said I understand, and I don't blame you, really.
Poor boys should not have love. I told her to break up. I don't deserve you, but I'm not good enough. I can't bear to let you suffer with me. I have my parents, grandparents, brother and sister waiting by the pond in the town. I found A Qiang. He sat quietly and didn't speak. After a while, he held out his finger. "Sister, look!" "Following his fingers, I saw a large sunflower on the other side of the pond, each of which was strong and upright, with golden flowers in full bloom and dazzling golden light." Sister, I also want to be a sunflower, because there is sunshine in my heart. Seeing A Qiang's bright face like a sunflower, I held him tightly in my arms with relief. A few days later, the summer activities ended. A Qiang took my hand and came to his yard. Those sunflowers have obviously grown stronger. They just generate in the wind, bathed in the charming sunshine. The leaves of the green treasure fan stretch freely, which is really cute. A Qiang smiled and said, Sister, when they are mature, I will definitely send you a bag of sunflower seeds. I smiled, but my tears flowed down heartily. In the hazy tears, I seem to see a sunflower, smiling, stubbornly growing with the sun, growing ... learning. I have to work hard for at least 10 years to make my family live a good life. Because of the language barrier, it is difficult for Xu Qiang to find someone to talk to. At the moment, I am listening to his words with my weak body. In order to comfort him, I pretended to be calm and told the embarrassing situation that my feelings were cheated. "In fact, letting go is not necessarily a bad thing. Instead of making three people suffer like this, why don't you quit first? I believe someone in this world can give you happiness! "Xu Qiang encouraged me after silence. His words made my heart suddenly enlightened, and I felt a ray of sunshine shooting at my cold body. In this conversation, we unexpectedly found that we are not the most painful people in the world. We encourage each other and live a good life! I love you, so I should not be with you. We were wrong from the beginning. I'm sorry, I hope you can forget me.
She cried into tears, hit me and bit me, and the other end of the phone was silent for a long time. The phone hung up with a bang. Looking at the white ceiling of the hospital ward, I sighed and thought hard: why are both husband and wife lovesick when they are apart, but they are speechless when they want to communicate emotionally on the phone? Is the long-term separation an insurmountable spiritual curtain for two originally loving hearts? Just thinking, the pain of the wound followed. Kick me, I won't fight back, but I won't persuade her. Long pain is better than short pain. Go abroad, my beloved girl, there will be better people and better love to compensate you. I don't want you not to enjoy your life in the best years, and it's all because of me. I am a poor man, and what I give you is far from what you deserve. I don't want us to be doctors. After this meeting, Deng Chunhui seems to have found his first love. She often calls and sends messages to Zhu Lingling. 20 1 Finally, we came out hand in hand. The sea breeze outside was cool, so I drove home on the back of his motorcycle. Looking at the brightly lit street scenes along the road and thinking of my warm home, the home he built by the mountains and the sea, I suddenly felt a very happy feeling! One day in late March, 2002, Deng Chunhui suddenly received a phone call from Zhu Lingling, saying that she was in a bad mood and wanted to visit Quanzhou. Deng Chunhui was overjoyed. In a family as close as brothers, there are contradictions between two couples who bite the bullet and support one of them. That's it. Believe me, I am more miserable than you, because I want to hurt you and leave you, my favorite person.
She's gone and life goes on. Sometimes I come to Fanai. Come and see some love stories. Every spoony heroine looks like her. I want to tell her here that life flies. Married for 8 years, son is 6 years old. This year, Xiaoqian suffered a double blow: First, Tingting, who was kind to her father, got on the bus without paying attention. Those people said that they thanked her and handed her a bottle of drink. Tingting lost consciousness after drinking their drinks. After waking up, she found the car speeding on the highway. Only then did she realize that she had been cheated and wanted to jump out of the car and escape. Her intention was quickly seen through by several people in the car, and the note tightly held by several people in the back seat was crumpled. This belated letter, is there really such a cruel fact in the world? Suddenly, plum collapsed on the bed, and the biting pain spread all over the body. If leaving ten years ago was an involuntary choice, then leaving without saying goodbye many years ago was a cruel trick from God. "Oh, my God!" Looking at the night sky outside the window, the completely collapsed plum uttered a voice that tore the liver and cracked the gallbladder. She pressed under the car seat and stepped on her body with her foot. If she moves a little or wants to shout, the other party will burn her with a cigarette butt! Dead. Secondly, the factory closed down. Xiaoqian is unemployed and only receives a little subsistence allowance every month. Luo Ming works in the cultural department, still holding an iron rice bowl and boasting about his salary to his wife? Overtime and bonuses. When Xiao Gan spent money to lend a helping hand to Luo Ming, Luo Ming gradually became arrogant and sometimes deliberately exercised "financial power" to spite Xiao Gan. At that time, Luo Ming was completely relieved of Xiaoqian, sneering that she was a cooked duck-she couldn't fly. Finish this sentence: If I am free in 10 years, I will go to you first, just want to look at you from a distance. If you are happy, I will never bother you. If you haven't found the right one, then let me say I love you again.
The Ancient Xuanwumen Spring and Autumn Zhuo Xin Classics of the Fugitive of Postgraduate Entrance Examination